Sonic_95
Well-known member
I have been asking myself this just about every day lately.....why was I ever put here?
There must be SOME reason I was brought into existence, but lately I've just been feeling like I'm nothing more than a burden than I am anything else.
My whole life I have never felt accepted by my family, my sisters in particular. Growing up everything I ever did pissed them off and I felt like I was more of an outsider than I was part of the family. My whole adult life I've bent over backwards for them and in return I just get attacked, be it in person, or behind my back. My parents just left after a 2 week visit and just seeing them on a daily basis has just really gotten me down.
I've always wanted to meet someone nice and possibly have a family one day and be happily married for 40+ like my parents. But 32 years into my life, I've just watched it happen to all of my cousins and friends I went to school with, most of which are years younger than me.
I have bent over backwards so many times for people to help them through hard times, be supportive of them and do whatever I can for them and they either attack me (and keep on taking advantage of me at that) or just stop talking to me cold turkey for no reason at all.
I sometimes wonder if I was ever meant to be here at all. I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.
There must be SOME reason I was brought into existence, but lately I've just been feeling like I'm nothing more than a burden than I am anything else.
My whole life I have never felt accepted by my family, my sisters in particular. Growing up everything I ever did pissed them off and I felt like I was more of an outsider than I was part of the family. My whole adult life I've bent over backwards for them and in return I just get attacked, be it in person, or behind my back. My parents just left after a 2 week visit and just seeing them on a daily basis has just really gotten me down.
I've always wanted to meet someone nice and possibly have a family one day and be happily married for 40+ like my parents. But 32 years into my life, I've just watched it happen to all of my cousins and friends I went to school with, most of which are years younger than me.
I have bent over backwards so many times for people to help them through hard times, be supportive of them and do whatever I can for them and they either attack me (and keep on taking advantage of me at that) or just stop talking to me cold turkey for no reason at all.
I sometimes wonder if I was ever meant to be here at all. I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.