LonelySutton
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Sorry for the multi negative posts this weekend.. I just have the time to write now.
I am 43 and I didn't get married and have kids. I claim a few things.. first, I had a few bad relationships and second lazyness and third, I always felt there would be time. Whatever the reason... I didn't work hard enough at something and now I just can't see it happening really. I am just too -- not a perfect body -- and too lost on the intricacies of relationships. Plus I just don't see how it is possible when I am forced to work all day and my plans can be ruined at the whim of my boss. I was a fool to think I would be treated well at any job. So it isn't going to happen. But I can't help but take that in my head and just think, what is the point of anything. I am kind of just sitting here waiting to die. Sure, I could have a few fun times along the way but the likely scenario is just down hill from here.
It feels like going forward is going to be a ton of work just to exist. Society now seems set up to make it impossible for me to do all those things I thought I could do at any age. I find it very hard to make friends with people now because.. most are married and don't need a friend. So the pool is small. When I do manage to make a few typically they aren't too good a friend.
I used to think I could get a job at any age but I don't think that is true anymore. I think there is an employer norm not to want to hire people over a certain age. Thus if you lose your job, you could really be up a creek. So it will be a struggle to keep that job. I used to believe in doctors and mental health doctors but I don't anymore. I don't trust them. At a time I am most likely to have at least one bout with cancer.
Life seems a constant struggle... and I am reaching the point there I feel like what is the point of struggling anymore.
Don't worry, I am too much of a whimp to take action but out of pure stream of pragmatic reality... I just can't see any point / anything to get excited about going forward. Just get up... slave away, so I can have money just to live... seems pointless.
Anyone else ever feel the same?
I am 43 and I didn't get married and have kids. I claim a few things.. first, I had a few bad relationships and second lazyness and third, I always felt there would be time. Whatever the reason... I didn't work hard enough at something and now I just can't see it happening really. I am just too -- not a perfect body -- and too lost on the intricacies of relationships. Plus I just don't see how it is possible when I am forced to work all day and my plans can be ruined at the whim of my boss. I was a fool to think I would be treated well at any job. So it isn't going to happen. But I can't help but take that in my head and just think, what is the point of anything. I am kind of just sitting here waiting to die. Sure, I could have a few fun times along the way but the likely scenario is just down hill from here.
It feels like going forward is going to be a ton of work just to exist. Society now seems set up to make it impossible for me to do all those things I thought I could do at any age. I find it very hard to make friends with people now because.. most are married and don't need a friend. So the pool is small. When I do manage to make a few typically they aren't too good a friend.
I used to think I could get a job at any age but I don't think that is true anymore. I think there is an employer norm not to want to hire people over a certain age. Thus if you lose your job, you could really be up a creek. So it will be a struggle to keep that job. I used to believe in doctors and mental health doctors but I don't anymore. I don't trust them. At a time I am most likely to have at least one bout with cancer.
Life seems a constant struggle... and I am reaching the point there I feel like what is the point of struggling anymore.
Don't worry, I am too much of a whimp to take action but out of pure stream of pragmatic reality... I just can't see any point / anything to get excited about going forward. Just get up... slave away, so I can have money just to live... seems pointless.
Anyone else ever feel the same?