Hello
I found this forum by Googling sentences like “depression”,” sadness”, “live slavery”… stuff like that.
When i turned 40 in March this year, i made a big balance of my live…
What a collection of “lose”, “betrayal”, “deceptions”, “sacrifice”, “failure” associated with people like parents, sisters, best friends, friends, girlfriends
I am not a religious person but i started to go that way (beyond the bible), to find a “why” in the past 3 years
I read and learn amazing stories about who we are and perhaps the “why this happens to me” can be explained with the word “Karma”, and a lot of astrological stuff
If so… and it looks like it, i am tired just to think that in times ahead of me, things will not be much different, and if I am lucky
It´s path thing… some paths are better than others but all with their lessons
I have a job that keeps me paying the bills but i am the slave of the slave of the slave there.
There is this famous sentence that it´s always on my mind lately
“I'd prefer to die standing, than to live always on my knees”
So much sense it did until i reach 37. Today i live on my knees to keep paying the bills …
I don´t have any friends (for a long time) and i live with my girlfriend
Actually she became my girlfriend after she saved my life in 2011, by letting me stay in her house, i still live in her house with her
March 2011, i was 37. No money, lots of debts, electricity cut off, the lost of the few friends i thought i had, and also the end of the last disappointment in Love
In April 2011, i meat this girl witch i still am and will be… a complete stranger that helped me in a way that it´s almost impossible and i was able to start a long healing process.
Everything changed in a very short time, end of illusion, abrupt new reality
Only in March 2015, 4 years after the “big change” is my financial life going to reach a Zero point… I have been under the Zero for a long long time… all this time only to reach Zero……
I am very thankful but… I am fed up… the choice is “no choice”
Then i found this forum, who knows i find more enlightenment here
Tks
I found this forum by Googling sentences like “depression”,” sadness”, “live slavery”… stuff like that.
When i turned 40 in March this year, i made a big balance of my live…
What a collection of “lose”, “betrayal”, “deceptions”, “sacrifice”, “failure” associated with people like parents, sisters, best friends, friends, girlfriends
I am not a religious person but i started to go that way (beyond the bible), to find a “why” in the past 3 years
I read and learn amazing stories about who we are and perhaps the “why this happens to me” can be explained with the word “Karma”, and a lot of astrological stuff
If so… and it looks like it, i am tired just to think that in times ahead of me, things will not be much different, and if I am lucky
It´s path thing… some paths are better than others but all with their lessons
I have a job that keeps me paying the bills but i am the slave of the slave of the slave there.
There is this famous sentence that it´s always on my mind lately
“I'd prefer to die standing, than to live always on my knees”
So much sense it did until i reach 37. Today i live on my knees to keep paying the bills …
I don´t have any friends (for a long time) and i live with my girlfriend
Actually she became my girlfriend after she saved my life in 2011, by letting me stay in her house, i still live in her house with her
March 2011, i was 37. No money, lots of debts, electricity cut off, the lost of the few friends i thought i had, and also the end of the last disappointment in Love
In April 2011, i meat this girl witch i still am and will be… a complete stranger that helped me in a way that it´s almost impossible and i was able to start a long healing process.
Everything changed in a very short time, end of illusion, abrupt new reality
Only in March 2015, 4 years after the “big change” is my financial life going to reach a Zero point… I have been under the Zero for a long long time… all this time only to reach Zero……
I am very thankful but… I am fed up… the choice is “no choice”
Then i found this forum, who knows i find more enlightenment here
Tks
