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Hello. I'll bet this is the first time a burgundy placemat has addressed you, or petitioned your attention. Am I right?
Have you ever wandered through Pier1 Imports and seen that lovely burgundy placemat beneath a set of untarnished chromewear knife, or under the glass bowl with the golden transparent marbles in them? Well, thats me, only now I sit at home on a Friday or often Saturday night. If I do go out, I notice that everyone has someone - they are hooked up - with a friend or two, or are in a relationship and cozy, or with a large group of friends. If I try to enter, I get what I project - so I am generally left alone with little conversation. Its not that I am uninteresting or unintelligent - its just that there must be a reason I am alone and do not have many friends to hang out with. Therefore, the beings around me treat me out of general respect - leave the person or thing alone, for there must be a reason he IS alone. I am having a hard time breaking out of that bubble. I can force myself to go places, parties, dancing, restaurants, even bars sometimes, and have some interaction with people, but I always end up back in my invisible bubble. With no reason for contacts. So I continue to eat alone, etc. We are going to work through this guys and girls. I have a serious interest in this study and plan to use this site to chronologue some experiments of mine so that I can in turn report to you what may or may not be such a great idea. For one, I have the cutest dog which I take on walks, and at least one person will comment on her every time I take her out. That could be a way in to people. However, I cannot seem to get a hook in - or connect - to the human being in front of me. Could it simply be that I am not a human? Am I perhaps, really a burgundy placemat from the Pier1 import store up the avenue?
Have you ever wandered through Pier1 Imports and seen that lovely burgundy placemat beneath a set of untarnished chromewear knife, or under the glass bowl with the golden transparent marbles in them? Well, thats me, only now I sit at home on a Friday or often Saturday night. If I do go out, I notice that everyone has someone - they are hooked up - with a friend or two, or are in a relationship and cozy, or with a large group of friends. If I try to enter, I get what I project - so I am generally left alone with little conversation. Its not that I am uninteresting or unintelligent - its just that there must be a reason I am alone and do not have many friends to hang out with. Therefore, the beings around me treat me out of general respect - leave the person or thing alone, for there must be a reason he IS alone. I am having a hard time breaking out of that bubble. I can force myself to go places, parties, dancing, restaurants, even bars sometimes, and have some interaction with people, but I always end up back in my invisible bubble. With no reason for contacts. So I continue to eat alone, etc. We are going to work through this guys and girls. I have a serious interest in this study and plan to use this site to chronologue some experiments of mine so that I can in turn report to you what may or may not be such a great idea. For one, I have the cutest dog which I take on walks, and at least one person will comment on her every time I take her out. That could be a way in to people. However, I cannot seem to get a hook in - or connect - to the human being in front of me. Could it simply be that I am not a human? Am I perhaps, really a burgundy placemat from the Pier1 import store up the avenue?
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