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I spent my early twenties up to my forties feeling lonely and alienated. I am in my mid fifty now. I have never been married or in a long-term relationship. Since my early 50s, I stopped feeling lonely and enjoyed my own company and freedom of living alone. You can say I am a lone wolf. I consider myself a strong-willed person because I overcame many difficulties in life. I like to do whatever I want and be curious about many things. I want to learn new things all the time.

My day job is teaching. I am a university professor and spend lots of time talking to young people in my daily work. I am an extrovert at work but an introvert in my private life.

I was born in Hong Kong and came to London at 18. I have been living in London for 37 years. I don't have any parents and friends in London now. My closest friend has emigrated to Thailand. I realise there is a big difference between being alone and feeling alone. I am my best friend, often making jokes and teasing myself. I DO NOT look at social media and compare my life with others; even I have over 400 friends on Facebook. In real life, I only have very few true friends. Many people who are in relationships can feel more alone than I am.

I have spent years training and fortifying my mind so that I can endure challenges and suffering in life. I am very fit...I believe there is a strong connection between the mind and the body. I do feel depressed occasionally, but I am very good at turning the negative energy of depression and anger into power in the gym. Ironically, the more I get depressed, the more time I spend in the gym and the best physical shape I become. I do get dopamine highs from intensive weight training and cardio sessions.