Weeping Willow

I like knowing there's a site like this. I'm not ready to tell my whole life story! I know there are a ton of depressed, scared, lonely people in this world. Sometimes I think I can feel the weight of it all on my mind and explode into tears. I sometimes wonder when the well will run dry. Some days it does. I've lost over half my family. My husband and son are my world, but I'm not theirs. I was an artist. Out of work though & doubt I'll ever be able to work again. I used to enjoy a lot of things I can no longer do, like sleep on the floor of a tent, walk a long trail to a good fishing spot or even throw horse-shoes. I do still have interest in some things, like astrology and divination (I gave up the latter) but I am my signs completely (Virgo Sun-Pisces Moon). However my depression and anxiety seem to have taken over my ENTIRE life. I've seen a doctor (actually, quite a few & don't care much for the one I have now). I think getting old really sucks. I'm a northerner at heart, but I married a southerner. I miss the snow so much & I hate hazy hot & humid summers. Not looking forward to that, or much at all, except maybe finding someone I can talk to here. Not that I never cuss, but "Hope is a four letter word."

[size=large][size=small]"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears".[/size][/size]