a broad spectrum

[eris]

I was wondering if any of you have any experience with bipolar disorder, schitzoaffective disorder, or borderline personality disorder. If you dont mind, everyone please tell me whatever you might think of the subject.

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I have always known I have borderline personality disorder. I have learned to just go with it, lol, im a good person so it just makes me self indulgent and have, uh, dangerous and, lets just say, "provocative" and slutty interests. I have never really seen a psychiatrist, except for the last 3 years, but it is only once every few months for 5 minutes at a time. I had an appointment with him today.

Today he tells me he wants me to take Tegrotal. Why ? I asked. He told me that I have bipolar disorder.

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"I thought I have borderline personality disorder," I said to him. Well, apparently I have both. And together it is something specific that falls under a "broad spectrum" called schitzoaffective disorder.

I stay awake for days at a time, and I have racing thoughts sometimes. I thought I was just a little different...lol...well, this is mania, apparantly. The manic side of bipolar disorder. My moods dont "swing" like most bipolar people, mine are 4 days of this, or 3 days of this, etc...that is more like borderline personality disorder.

But because I have a personality disorder AND a chemical disorder I have something called "schitzoaffective disorder". This is the broad spectrum I am talking about.

Wiki says this: Schizoaffective disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by recurring episodes of elevated or depressed mood, or of simultaneously elevated and depressed mood, that alternate with, or occur together with, distortions in perception. The division into depressive and bipolar types is based on whether the individual has ever had a manic, hypomanic or mixed episode. The symptoms are similar to and are in conjunction with other disorders with prominent mood and psychotic symptoms like bipolar disorder with psychotic features, recurrent depression with psychotic features and borderline personality disorder.

EDIT: I just want to give a little disclaimer. I dont ever have hallucinations or delusions. I also do not have huge emotional outburst. I dont even talk to people that I dont like. Everyone is a little different when it comes to these things. I am "all there". I just think really really fast sometimes



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I dont know how to feel about all of this. It really sounds like me, i guess. I am supposed to start talking to a therapist (again) next week. I started seeing a therapist 3 years ago when i started seeing the doctor, but i stopped making appointments because I didnt like it.at.all. Well, he says I HAVE to see a therapist

Maybe the Tegrotol will help me sleep. It is a mood stabilizer. I already take an antidepressant and a sleeping pill (that i dont take) and an anti-anxiety pill. So, with this and all my insulin I am glad I have good heath insurance.

Are all of these pills going to help me ?

Well, the insulin keeps me alive; without that I am dead. Before I started taking these psychiatric medications 3 years ago I was really bad. I had an actual real honest to goodness nervous breakdown.

Ive been pretty good the last 3 years. im happy I just get a little...a little...

bored

I am manic in a happy kind of way. I can see it now.

Anything you have to say on the subject is much appreciated.



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[SophiaGrace]

I'm friends with someone online that has this. She's an awesome friend. ^_________________^

<3

 

[csmswhs]

see a true rastafarian about this

 

[eris]

and to both of you.

 

[Badjedidude]

Honestly, I think that waayyyyyy too many people try to sluff off responsibility for their behavioral deficiencies on a psychological illness such as bipolar disorder and "the schizos." I'm not implying that anyone on here is doing that, but I've seen it IRL far too often to think it's a coincidence... so with that in mind, this rant about to spew forth is not aimed at anyone in particular, but at society as a whole. Enjoy!

RANT TIME!

I'm sorry, but if you're a dumbfuck ******* and you act up or continually sabotage your social interactions through misbehavior, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE. Stop trying to avoid the responsibility by claiming that you're a victim of some psychological disorder, when really, YOU JUST WEREN'T ******* DISCIPLINED ENOUGH AS A CHILD.

Stop avoiding the hard work of ADAPTING AND LEARNING TO BEHAVE YOURSELF.

lol

RANT OVER!

With that said, I'd say that following my experiences and observations with the issue, probably only a small percentage of people out there actually have bipolar/schizo disoirders... but then I'm not a doc. Prove me wrong.

 

[Just_Some_Dude]

there are people who fake it. but not only fake it, actually nurse it and wield it.

my brother is truly bipolar. this i know for a fact. there are very few truths i would ever say i can guarantee with absolute certainty, but that is one of them. because, well, i've known him for thirty-two years. it's clear to see that when he is manic, it is not intentional. it's also clear to see that when he is depressed, he is drowning. it's obvious that he is not enjoying it, but rather is a prisoner of it. he is the real deal. a lifer.

i won't say mental illness runs in my family. but i will say, we've got our fair share. from manic-depressive, to depression, to sociopathy, to borderline, to ptsd, even some schizophrenia. you name it. i've seen it, lived with it, or been it.

i also have another dear friend who suffers from bipolar. but she is an amazing person who stuns me daily with her strength.

it's easy to spot the fakes, isn't it bjd?

here is the secret formula for weeding out the fakes:
- genuine mental illness: they suffer from it (suicide, injury, loss, insecurity, broken relationships, etc)
- feigned mental illness: they gain something from it (attention, forgiveness, exception, free passes, assistance, pity)

 

[csmswhs]

Honestly, I think that waayyyyyy too many people try to sluff off responsibility for their behavioral deficiencies on a psychological illness such as bipolar disorder and "the schizos." I'm not implying that anyone on here is doing that, but I've seen it IRL far too often to think it's a coincidence... so with that in mind, this rant about to spew forth is not aimed at anyone in particular, but at society as a whole. Enjoy!

RANT TIME!

I'm sorry, but if you're a dumbfuck ******* and you act up or continually sabotage your social interactions through misbehavior, MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE. Stop trying to avoid the responsibility by claiming that you're a victim of some psychological disorder, when really, YOU JUST WEREN'T ******* DISCIPLINED ENOUGH AS A CHILD.

Stop avoiding the hard work of ADAPTING AND LEARNING TO BEHAVE YOURSELF.

lol

RANT OVER!

With that said, I'd say that following my experiences and observations with the issue, probably only a small percentage of people out there actually have bipolar/schizo disoirders... but then I'm not a doc. Prove me wrong.

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[Just_Some_Dude]

good post, cmwrhasdfhwesscms

i love bob marley! and especially that song

 

[eris]

I dont know about this new stuff, but I am certain I have borderline personality disorder.

I have ...urges.

to do things.

Sometimes I want to **** everyone I see.

Sometimes I want to burn my arm.

I got over these things. I control myself.

And I have so many spot on symptoms.

cutting, gender identity issues, fetishes, lack of goals, drug use, promiscuity, is very very very bored

lol. I know I have BPD. I am a walking case file

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but my sleep problems and racing thoughts...they say it is bipolar...i dont know

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i won't say mental illness runs in my family. but i will say, we've got our fair share. from manic-depressive, to depression, to sociopathy, to borderline, to ptsd, even some schizophrenia. you name it. i've seen it, lived with it, or been it.

My mother has borderline personality disorder. but she is a mean-spirited person, so she is a total **** My cousin was a sociopath.

here is the secret formula for weeding out the fakes:
...broken relationships...

*single tear*




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[All In The Mind]

Words to a face.

 

[Nina]

Eris--

I've worked with and been exposed to both sides of this issue. I've seen the folks that Bjd ranted about, so eloquently, and I too agree that some of these folks are simply lacking in the skills and early descipline and have elected to hide out under the umbrella of dysfunction rather than "do the work." I've also seen the legitimate cases who "suffer" brutally through their disorders, as JSD stated. JSD"s "secret formula" was just about as 'spot-on' as it can get.
I think YOU know deep down that if you've greatly improved in the last 3 years, that you're on the right track. I do think therapy is valuable for some, BUT only if they are willing to work with the therapist. It can take some time to find the therapist you click with but it is worth the effort. No one but a doc can answer ques about your meds, but YOU can grill him about them untill he goes into seizures about them, and you should. NEVER walk out of their office until you have EVERY single question answered. It's YOUR life and YOU have the right to know exactly why they think you need a med. Keep bugging the doc until ALL your questions are answered.

These issues are all very complex and most can combine with other conditions to cause further complex behavors and symptoms. If you doubt one doc seek second and third opinions. Questions...questions....questions...ask them all until, you have the answers you need!!

 

[VanillaCreme]

Closed at the OP's request.