Okie doke.Time to put on my bitching hat. Didn't expect such fast replies by the way. I'm gonna get the big stuff out of the way first. I'm in love with a girl. I have been since a met her years ago. We've been dating two years now. She was the first girl I ever worked up the courage to ask out (I'm fresh out of high school by the way). I never did get to though, my so called best friend at the time found out I liked her, so right before I was gonna go ask her he told me they were already dating. That was a lie. So I went home and beat up my pillow and all that jazz. I'll cut the crap in the middle but we're together now, and it feels like she's not the same person I met.When I started this post she had been giving me the cold shoulder for 5 days straight for reasons unknown. It seems the very few time's were we're actually together I feel an uneasy tension. Like she thinks I don't even deserve to be in her presence. I don't know what it is, maybe she thinks I'm just plain mean, or cynical, or I suck the life out of her. I'm trying to be optimistic or at least see this from her side of the story, but it's hard to do either of those things when I can't even get a word out of her for what seems like weeks at a time. ..... You know I can't even tell if this complaining is even helping or just making me feel even more guilty
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