About Me Jackie

[jackiebluegirl]

I will try to keep it brief.
I was raised by my tyrant of a mother and her string of abusive boyfriends as my dad died when I was 6.

I married an abuser and left.

I developed crippling panic and depression.

I have 2 kids teenagers. I love my daughter very much but she just comes to me for money or to use my car which is now broken.

My son is a good kid but he has friends and hes young.

I had to move back home where I was put down here into the basement.
My kids are on the main floor. Its very depressing down here.

I was not allowed out until I was 28 as I had to babysit my mom and her fears. She would make herself sick and blame her worry on me so I felt guilty. SHe controlled me all my life.

And shes doing it again. Since my kids are on the main floor she dictates everything to ME. Dont get me wrong the kids have it good but I dont.

Its back to the same controlling ways just like when I was a kid.

Meal time comes and goes and no one askes me if I want dinner so I go without much of the time.

Im lonely. I have no car since it broke so I cant even leave to go on a drive like I used to.

I came here for support and someone to understand me.

Thank you for reading this.

Im im my 40's and and back to this mess once again.

 

[Badjedidude]

Welcome to the site.

 

[Poguesy]

G'day

 

[condemnedsoul666]

Hey.

 

[grainofrice24]

Howdy

 

[Janggo0]

Heya and like with everyone in here...******* sad story.

 

[Jilted John]

Hi Jackie,and welcome,hope this site makes you feel like you've got somewhere to turn to.