bearcat22 said:Do not let this feeling of being different trouble you too deeply.
Consider. Look around.
Are most people stupid, lazy, cowardly, shallow, dishonest, conformist?
Is it so bad to be different?
Perhaps not.
Read. Find the most "different" people that have lived.
Would you like to try to change things the way they did?
Would you actually like your life to have mattered at all?
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Jessicat said:I feel the same Hewhowalksalone.
Think some traits is burned so deep inside of me that they are not going to change. Trust issues and the battle within myself will never let me connect with someone as easy as it should be. This Christmas and New Year’s Eve was just another example of that. My bf and I had some of his friends over, I made dinner, we had a few drinks, we laughed and had a decent time. Yet, I don’t feel like I fit in.
Since I was very young I have felt like I don’t belong in this life, that I was supposed to die. Now I’m just a ghost of something I was supposed to be and I have to carry that with me every day. Looking at life with this inability to be myself cause I’m not what I was supposed to be. I’m changed against my will. I think this will be a critical battle for me. Can I get to the point where I see myself and not his taint on me.
Well, it seems to me that the only answer is to do something exceptional.
Prove that you are different for a purpose. Fitting in means you are meaningless and worthless.
Be more. Demand more.
None of this revolting "change your attitude" garbage. DO SOMETHING exceptional.
Even if that only means you strap a bomb to your body and go create justice somewhere.
Make your difference count. Make your difference matter.
Do good? Build a hospital? Sure, sure. Shovel some more sand hopelesly against the tide if you
think that means being exceptional.
Or actually remove actual evil from the Earth forever.
Imagine how much difference that would make, imagine how you will be forever remembered
as so much better than the rest.
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Are you perhaps being sarcastic? You can't seriously be suggesting to "strap a bomb to your chest" to "remove evil from the Earth forever"...
Do I really need to point out how psychotic that sounds?