All my life I have been a mildly social kid ive never been the outgoing guy who was the center of attention. All my "friends" are the "cool" people at school I try my best to open up to them but for some reason i cannot, not even with my own family I can be myself. When I meet a new person i like to open myself up and act more social than i would around my friends but for some reason i either say something stupid or do something i dont know... In the end they get taken away either they get a boyfriend, they make other friends, or whaterver. I feel like a stepping stone for other people to prosper and be happy. Ive never felt that true happiness ive never had a best friend. ive never had someone to open up to . I dont know why or how this happens i just want to know that someone cares. I hope one day ill find someone who will stay...
