Finally going to break down and reach out.
I've lived with my boyfriend for a year now, and we've been together a little shy of three.
We met on the Internet, and he lived out of state.. We would devote all of our time talking on the phone and skyping, and we would visit each other here and there.. We decided it was time to live together, so he moved here.
Everything started fine, he had visited here before and had some friends so falling into a group of friends wasnt hard for him.. But he has gotten very sick and reclusive so we do not have friends anymore.
I am the only one who works, he has never had a job. He says his sickness keeps him unable to work and I see that.. But he gets so angry when we don't have money to go to a concert or buy something we want.
We just fight a lot now. About money, about having no friends, how I ruined his life by bringing him here.
I'm very sensitive to emotions and when he yells at me I just go crazy feeling like a failure.
He says I don't share the same love of going out to concerts and meeting people in that community, but I do.. We just don't have money to do it all the time like he wants. When I deny him this he gets very mad at me and our entire relationship gets threatened. It's like he's under the impression I don't want the same things. It's frustrating.
He says I need to change and this whole relationships success rests on me... So I feel like if I deny him anything he will leave. God it hurts.
I've given up a lot for him. My best friend doesnt talk to me anymore because I couldn't make time to talk with him. I have no interests anymore. I don't even know where I'm going with this. I just feel so lost in my relationship...
I've lived with my boyfriend for a year now, and we've been together a little shy of three.
We met on the Internet, and he lived out of state.. We would devote all of our time talking on the phone and skyping, and we would visit each other here and there.. We decided it was time to live together, so he moved here.
Everything started fine, he had visited here before and had some friends so falling into a group of friends wasnt hard for him.. But he has gotten very sick and reclusive so we do not have friends anymore.
I am the only one who works, he has never had a job. He says his sickness keeps him unable to work and I see that.. But he gets so angry when we don't have money to go to a concert or buy something we want.
We just fight a lot now. About money, about having no friends, how I ruined his life by bringing him here.
I'm very sensitive to emotions and when he yells at me I just go crazy feeling like a failure.
He says I don't share the same love of going out to concerts and meeting people in that community, but I do.. We just don't have money to do it all the time like he wants. When I deny him this he gets very mad at me and our entire relationship gets threatened. It's like he's under the impression I don't want the same things. It's frustrating.
He says I need to change and this whole relationships success rests on me... So I feel like if I deny him anything he will leave. God it hurts.
I've given up a lot for him. My best friend doesnt talk to me anymore because I couldn't make time to talk with him. I have no interests anymore. I don't even know where I'm going with this. I just feel so lost in my relationship...