Poueff
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I'll go right to the point. I have lots of "friends",but no one really gives a ****.
It's like I'm a friend,but I'm just there.
Most of them consider me their friend,but never really talk to me,or really care enough
I'll give you an example:
I don't know if anyone remembers my thread asking to where to take that girl who was my close friend,which I considered special,but,hum,we aren't special. To her,we're regular,all the things she did with me (the hugging,cheek kissing,etc.) are done in a far more exploitive way with guys she barely considers friends,so I guess that speaks for itself.
Another example of this is that today,in ET (tecnologic education (portuguese = educação tecnológica~) I was thinking about this exact matter and was really depressed,and only at the end when we were exiting the class one of the girls in my class asked what was the matter. I almost burst into tears because of the ******* irony of that...
I'm the least shy person you can find,I have a great personality and,even though I'm no adonis,I'm not ugly nor anything close to it.
There is basicly no person who'd care if I suddenly disapear... and no,I want no hugs,since hugs mean nothing here and I'm so far down everyone's consideration that I can get all the hugs in the world that it'll still be the same
Yeah I got one of those girls I mentioned in my first thread still as a real friend (she changed alot) (even though the uglier one now hates me for no reason) she has a boyfriend and because of that,I'm not in the top layer of her "friend level" either. Same goes for everyone around me other than my family,everyone has someone who they care more,generally a lot more. And I'm just another friend at the bottom of the barrel.
There is a girl I met online (yeah,she lives in a PT island but I know 100% she what she claims to be) that is in the same situation I do. I also have a friend (real one) who still cares for me in my old class. But it's different,most of the time I'm far away from both (never actually been with the former) and even when I'm with them,it always seems like there is something more important.
Bah,I'll dig more in later ~.~
It's like I'm a friend,but I'm just there.
Most of them consider me their friend,but never really talk to me,or really care enough
I'll give you an example:
I don't know if anyone remembers my thread asking to where to take that girl who was my close friend,which I considered special,but,hum,we aren't special. To her,we're regular,all the things she did with me (the hugging,cheek kissing,etc.) are done in a far more exploitive way with guys she barely considers friends,so I guess that speaks for itself.
Another example of this is that today,in ET (tecnologic education (portuguese = educação tecnológica~) I was thinking about this exact matter and was really depressed,and only at the end when we were exiting the class one of the girls in my class asked what was the matter. I almost burst into tears because of the ******* irony of that...
I'm the least shy person you can find,I have a great personality and,even though I'm no adonis,I'm not ugly nor anything close to it.
There is basicly no person who'd care if I suddenly disapear... and no,I want no hugs,since hugs mean nothing here and I'm so far down everyone's consideration that I can get all the hugs in the world that it'll still be the same
Yeah I got one of those girls I mentioned in my first thread still as a real friend (she changed alot) (even though the uglier one now hates me for no reason) she has a boyfriend and because of that,I'm not in the top layer of her "friend level" either. Same goes for everyone around me other than my family,everyone has someone who they care more,generally a lot more. And I'm just another friend at the bottom of the barrel.
There is a girl I met online (yeah,she lives in a PT island but I know 100% she what she claims to be) that is in the same situation I do. I also have a friend (real one) who still cares for me in my old class. But it's different,most of the time I'm far away from both (never actually been with the former) and even when I'm with them,it always seems like there is something more important.
Bah,I'll dig more in later ~.~
