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[Syber Tiger]

so to day we had a class (hole grade)(school)trip to a spa resourt thing

but with all that ppl,i still feel alone and lost,i walked/followed some of my friends but still felt realy alone,and the idee and want to suiside came back with a verry big force,that the only thing i can think of now

i cant stand this lonly feeling enymore,its killing me,i can rather just kill my self and save my self from a long painfull death, well i am olredy dead inside and out.i literly talked to no one,kinda only 2-3ppl out of +-200

i just want a hug,its so small but i will pay someone to give me it,u wont understand...

no one will ever like me,love is out of th picture

and smoking,beeing high dont help at all,dont even get high,and the lonly feeling is still there,maby someting stranger will help?

i fucken hate myself and i fucken hate life
WHEN WILL IT FINALY END?

 

[Ak5]

Yeah I understand Syber. When I was in Jr. High I avoided going to those trips because I knew I would be alone.

The important thing to remember is that everything has a solution. Whenever you go on these trips and you feel down, try to forget being down; talk to anyone around you. Spend time with people you are acquainted with and chime into their conversation when you have something to say.

Your in school, I would kill to be in school right now! You have people around you that you're spending every single day with. Talk to them, try to not be shy.

Good luck.

 

[Sci-Fi]

Where you high when you wrote this? I've seen you write way better messages before.

Anyway, you were with friends and people. Sometimes you have to give yourself a little push to walk beside them instead of behind them.

Drugs are not the answer, they are NEVER the answer. Getting high or going off to la la land will NOT solve your problem, it will still be there when you come back down. You need to be the one to push yourself to be more involved. If you insist on walking behind everyone that is where you will stay. Suicide is NOT the answer either. Clear your mind of those thoughts and start replacing them with encouraging ones. Become a member of the pack.

 

[Syber Tiger]

no,i wasent high when i wrote this

i cant help it i am to shy,and i dont have the confedents to push myself

i did drugs cuz,i dont know realy,maby it will take my shyness away a bit,even a lil bit will help,but it didnt do enything

and i think of suisede ALOT for me it seems like a good way out of this all,i know most will say no,but deep down they agree
some,idk

 

[Sci-Fi]

No drugs won't they only mask it.

Suicide isn't the way out, and yes when feeling the way you do people do think it is. Been there a couple of times myself, but focusing on the little things I'd miss helped with that. Even stupid things like not reading my favorite comic books each month (err week with as many as I read), or not seeing the next Batman movie. Anything that brings you the smallest amount of joy, even coming on this forum and chatting with all the people here. We may differ in ages but many of us have been there, where you are. Just don't give up and give yourself a little more of a push next time. Not off the ledge! Okay sorry bad joke.

 

[Syber Tiger]

ya tru,but even in the chat i feel lonely and ignored,no one to talk to,most ppl say a word or two to me and that it

 

[Ak5]

ya tru,but even in the chat i feel lonely and ignored,no one to talk to,most ppl say a word or two to me and that it

Lies! I send you PMs

I haven't been on chat in a while too....

 

[Syber Tiger]

i know,but i am talking about the chat room,where i am most of the time

 

[adonis]

I just wanna keep it simple, first step to be happy is, start pretending. i know, in the beginning its hard, but you can manage it. because, i strongly believe that we weren't masters when we were born, we learn stuffs as we grow up. so basically, by pretending you are learning how to be happy. here is how it is done, think you are born to make others happy first. start your day with a great smile, take a look at yourself in the mirror before yo step out with that smile, n continue till yo come back to your bed. this can make wonders. trust me

 

[Ak5]

Most people are naturally turned off by depression. Thus, it's important that when going out and socializing, to not be depressed. Open up and that's it.

 

[Felix]

I just wanna keep it simple, first step to be happy is, start pretending. i know, in the beginning its hard, but you can manage it. because, i strongly believe that we weren't masters when we were born, we learn stuffs as we grow up. so basically, by pretending you are learning how to be happy. here is how it is done, think you are born to make others happy first. start your day with a great smile, take a look at yourself in the mirror before yo step out with that smile, n continue till yo come back to your bed. this can make wonders. trust me

Agreed.

Also, I suggest you stop taking drugs, they probably make you even momre depressed and just add to your problems.