Francisco49
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Hi everyone,
Little intro ..try to keep it short
I recently realized that I have really low self-esteem and I've been like this for years but only now it has dawned on me.
The idea that I have living most of my life holding back and doubting myself and putting myself down is such a depressing notion. Observing the negative thought is even more depressing because you can't just turn them off.
WOW what a pivotal moment to become aware of this unhealthy sense of self!!!!
The first step to over coming a problem is to know you have a problem and to know what it is. We all know too well what it means to feel this way ...sort of like driving through life with hand break on.
It was a long journey to come to this point but I'm glad I know what my problem is. Had my first panic attack in High School during one of my routine tasks of providing my opinion during a class discussion lol what scary moment and it went down hill from there.
First I figured social anxiety was the problem and then I was hmm I'm anxious in more then just social situations although they are the WORST!.
Then I figured it was General Anxiety disorder but then I realized that I was not anxious all the time only sometimes but my mind would choose those situations based on my comfort level and apparent danger.
Because I mean there are situations where I'm comfortable and totally free to flap my wings but those are rare and mostly with family. Then I decided to listen to the negative thoughts, and worry and low and behold .....I do not appreciate myself...respect myself...or even love myself. EUREKA!! moment
Low self-esteem a curse that I must overcome :club:
Now all I have to do is love myself ...(easier said then done am I right)
By the way I'm 23 ...male....and live in Canada
Little intro ..try to keep it short
I recently realized that I have really low self-esteem and I've been like this for years but only now it has dawned on me.
The idea that I have living most of my life holding back and doubting myself and putting myself down is such a depressing notion. Observing the negative thought is even more depressing because you can't just turn them off.
WOW what a pivotal moment to become aware of this unhealthy sense of self!!!!
The first step to over coming a problem is to know you have a problem and to know what it is. We all know too well what it means to feel this way ...sort of like driving through life with hand break on.
It was a long journey to come to this point but I'm glad I know what my problem is. Had my first panic attack in High School during one of my routine tasks of providing my opinion during a class discussion lol what scary moment and it went down hill from there.
First I figured social anxiety was the problem and then I was hmm I'm anxious in more then just social situations although they are the WORST!.
Then I figured it was General Anxiety disorder but then I realized that I was not anxious all the time only sometimes but my mind would choose those situations based on my comfort level and apparent danger.
Because I mean there are situations where I'm comfortable and totally free to flap my wings but those are rare and mostly with family. Then I decided to listen to the negative thoughts, and worry and low and behold .....I do not appreciate myself...respect myself...or even love myself. EUREKA!! moment
Low self-esteem a curse that I must overcome :club:
Now all I have to do is love myself ...(easier said then done am I right)
By the way I'm 23 ...male....and live in Canada
