I am the saddest one in the world.

[Zolitoo]

I have no friends, I have no girlfriend, I brokeup with my fiancé, she was all my life, but the relation ended suddenly about one year ago after quick series of problems, I need love and do not find it, I need wife and do not find her.

I am so lonely and emotionally deprived.

I am strong enough, but my strength is dropping down day after day, i have read many articles about how to enjoy life and loneliness but some hints are working only temporary.

Sometimes i think in immigration to another country, another community, may be i find happiness there, but even that is not that easy to risk and move all my life to another country.

Sometimes i want to talk to anyone but cannot find one, i got tired from talking with myself, going out with my self, walking and driving with my self.

I am so nice and helpful with people, and always have been abused, i like to see all people arround me very happy and living in peace, but for me i did never taste the real happiness.

I even always try to pretend that i am happy but i fail, people always telling me that i look so miserable and sad.

I have a persistent severe depression, tried many medications but no one worked.

No one is caring about me, not even my parents and sister, they are only caring about themselves, they are so selfish.

I am so kind and very nice with people, never intended to hurt or annoy anyone.

I do not see any value for my life, it is worthless, i wish i was not born.

Going to work everyday and back home, surfing the internet, sitting with my pet, trying to study for the master degree, this is my daily life.

Sometimes i tell my self to be patient, everything will be ok, the future will bring me what i need, but do not see anything but more ****.

I FED UP, I FED UP, life is so hard and tough, i do not know what hell the future may bring to me.

 

[LoneKiller]

Hi Zolitoo. Good to meet you.

I'm sorry to hear you are in so much pain right now. I'll do my best to help you.

"..Sometimes i tell my self to be patient, everything will be ok, the future will bring me what i need, but do not see anything but more ****..."

You can't rely on the future and other people to bring you happiness. Sometimes you have to take chances which can potentially cause you much pain, but these are the ones that are worth taking. The ones that will bring you solace in the end.

Stand up and take part in things that will boost your self confidence.
Do not try too hard to make friends. Be yourself. You can't sit around and just wait for happiness to come knocking at your door. Like I said. Take chances, risk getting let down. Don't let this beat you. You conquer it.

 

[Peaches]

I know 100% how you feel now. I wish we were neighbors and could chat with each other on the way to the grocery store.

 

[Shut_Out]

Since I'm pretty much in the same boat, I have nothing more to add other than {{{Zolitoo}}}.

 

[ladyforsaken]

I'm sorry things are so rough for you. I don't know what good advice I can give, but just don't give up. Life is always full of ups and downs.. but nothing is worth giving up for. Keep strong and keep going. *hugs*

 

[Beckett]

Our situations are not the same, but we have some points in common, and as Peaches commented, too bad we don't live near to eachother, i think it would be nice to have a conversation with you, or many.

Hugs.