hey, see this
http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=7353 and tell me it's not talking about you.
I wrote that while ago, I was in the same freaking spot
I think you should break the cycle.
When you meet people these days, you'll be so vulnerable talking to them like you're starving for contact cuz haven't talked to a human for a long time.
Now, please don't let yourself alone that often, who do you know? ask if they'll be somewhere tonight, go there just stay with them. Nice people will not reject a simple request like "what're you guys doing tonight? may I be there with you?"
Do this for 5 times, with regular even boring mates, no need for potential lovers- no dates.
This will get you out of your down state, and will let your true personality comes once again, and people will love it and then even love to be around you for sure.
sighx99, I' think I was in almost exact place where you tell us you are. Get yourself out, get your personality back. this ****** loneliness is consuming you.