This might be a bit long, i hope i get some advice, well my life have been falling apart for a very long time approx. more than 5 years. I have depression, anxiety, Attention deficit disorder, problems sleeping, B and to top it all off I have asthma and sinus infection that will last for aslong as I live, ever since I moved from my country when i was 10, I started to change a lot, I was very strict with everyone and near the end the of the 2nd semester I remember people talking bad about me because of it... all i could do was just listen while being angry. This also happened when I was 7th, on 8th I was bullied. I was doing fine on 9th until 10th grade where I got bullied a lot, since that point I went down hill. On 12th grade I didnt even feel like doing anything, I had no energy, I couldn't concentrate at all. Some months after i started college, it was just awful...I couldn't speak english or write well at all even though I have been 11 years on the US, to make things worst when I speak the language im comfortable with( which is spanish) the same things happens. Depression and Anxiety started to affect me so bad, to the point where I didn't study until the last day of an exam. I did bad on my classes they are mostly C's. I have always been shy,never had a gf(I was always scared to talk to girls), always kept problems to myself, most of the alone. I never really trusted my family with personal issues. I have never open up to anyone, I have always been the type to never shared things on real because of my pride and being shy. I have gained a lot of weight since high school(like 70 pounds). Since around 2010 I have been so worn out to the point where I can't do anything by myself, it's like my brain dosent even work anymore,if it wasent for a girl i became friends with on the 2010 fall semester, I highly doubt that I would had passed... a bit after that semester ended I experienced chest pains because at that time my body overacted for even the smallest of things. After that semester was over I started again on fall where my Older brother took me to college during the night while my sister husband pick me up around 8 pm. I felt so depressed on that semester. I felt alone, stressed, pathetic with very low self-esteem and mentally worn out to the point I failed the class I really let them down...This semester I got the same teacher as the previous class and i'am doing bad to the point ill have to drop the class. I feel so ashamed that I don't know how to tell the teacher why. All my life I have always felt lonely, scared, depressed, stressed it's the main reason why I stay in my room most of the time and never really interact with people. I took 2 years of therapy that never helped. Theres a girl I want to meet but like I said earlier I'm too worn out to the point where I can't think straight and even the smallest things gets me anxiety attack. I'am afraid that I'll end up like my dad.... He always had depression for more than 20 years. He was never social, always depressed and never lived a happy life. I have tried to attempt suicide since high school, but something deep inside of me always stops me I don't know what it is though anyway sorry If my grammar ins't good even though I'am 22 . Any advice?
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Paragraphs would help. I wouldn't worry about your grammar, that and spelling gets tossed out the window these days, and mine isn't either. I tried to pull bits that jumped out at me.
You're prone to depression, seeing as how your dad had it and wasn't very social. You just need to battle against it, don't let it win. It will be more of an effort for you to be social, you'll have to push yourself more and keep working at it. It will be very easy for you to slip into depression and anxiety because it is where you are comfortable at. It's what you are used to. That might sound weird but if you think about it, it's true. If it wasn't we wouldn't find ourselves slipping into it.
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You're prone to depression, seeing as how your dad had it and wasn't very social. You just need to battle against it, don't let it win. It will be more of an effort for you to be social, you'll have to push yourself more and keep working at it. It will be very easy for you to slip into depression and anxiety because it is where you are comfortable at. It's what you are used to. That might sound weird but if you think about it, it's true. If it wasn't we wouldn't find ourselves slipping into it.
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silver birch leaves
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I second what Sci-Fi said above.
I do encourage you to speak to this teacher or anyone you can think of, who may understand your situation. The worst would be to give up without trying. It's the only piece of advice I can give. I'm sorry. But you can pm me, if you think it helps. You may also try to post some more information and questions, and see what other members think. Paragraphs would be helpful
I second what Sci-Fi said above.
I do encourage you to speak to this teacher or anyone you can think of, who may understand your situation. The worst would be to give up without trying. It's the only piece of advice I can give. I'm sorry. But you can pm me, if you think it helps. You may also try to post some more information and questions, and see what other members think. Paragraphs would be helpful
Thank you for answering. I tried battling it a lot, but it's extremely difficult. I have done meditation, took medicines,exercise, listen to music but I haven't had any luck. I get anxiety attacks almost every hour,everyday in which it made me feel worthless. It doesn't let me enjoy life to the fullest, I can't even enjoy things I love to do. Because of this all this time I haven't been able to spend or enjoy time with family, due to the fact that all of this is so hard to handle, so its extremely hard for me to talk about this with my family. The closest person to me is my mom, but I really don't to worry her a lot because of her high blood pressure and I doubt I'll be able to stand watching her cry. When I go to college is where depression and anxiety attacks me the worst, seeing people hanging out with other people, dating while I barely have people to hang out. It's like I always wanted what they have and I just don't have it. When I work in groups in college my mind goes completely blank..cant' think, talk, or read well it builds up a lot of frustration inside of me. I do admit I have improved a tiny bit since I have tried my hardest to break this cycle of anxiety then depression and so on.
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silver birch leaves
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att96 said:
I don't doubt that you've been trying to fight your issues, but you may need someone else around to support you. I wouldn't put any burden on my family neither. Unfortunately, I have no idea what options you may have: where to go, who to approach, when living in the US. Having some close friends solves many problems. If you have none (or barely any) at the moment, maybe it's something worthy of putting some energy into.
I still believe it's better to talk to your teacher as soon as possible. They may not be able to help directly, but they still can refer you to someone else and be more understanding to problems you face when studying.
I can relate to the experience of group working. I'm exactly the same. Now it's even worse, when studying in non-native language. I always try to do my best, but I have my limits. I accept them. I will never excel in every field. It's better to channel your energy into something which brings you satisfaction and some sense of success.
I always hated group projects too, especially if the teacher stuck you in a group. Normally it would be with people you wouldn't want to be with.
You've made an effort though and improved a bit. Keep at it. Sometimes it may seem easier to just give up but if you do keep at it eventually it will come more naturally. I agree with birch, talk to your teacher, see if they can help get you into a program. There are places to go and people to talk to out there. Some schools even have programs or support groups.
You've made an effort though and improved a bit. Keep at it. Sometimes it may seem easier to just give up but if you do keep at it eventually it will come more naturally. I agree with birch, talk to your teacher, see if they can help get you into a program. There are places to go and people to talk to out there. Some schools even have programs or support groups.
AFrozenSoul
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First things first Cs get degrees. Don't let anyone tell you that getting only Cs will lead you to fail in life. Having better grades won't hurt, but is not mandatory. You sound like an over thinker. You have to analyze every detail no matter how big or small. You have to find meaning in everything. I know I used to do this. It will cause you to lose track of what is going on and make you tired. So stop that, there is a time for details and a time to not care.
You mentioned weight gain. I always recommend a workout regiment. There are plenty of things you can do at home. Though I find going to a gym to be more relaxing. I Recommend this because working out causes your body release happy chemicals. They are pretty strong and even out later on. I always feel better after a good workout. It is hard, but rewarding. Plus once your clothed start to feel too loose you feel even better.
As for girls and socializing. It takes practice. Accept you will make mistakes and you will embarrass yourself. Accept it and get over it. It sucks but are you in any better of a situation now? Plus you never know what will make people interested in you. So get out there and try. Learn, grow evolve and you will do just fine. Plus what are the odds you will see a lot of these people again?
In the end these changes have to come from you. I can advise you all day and night. However, you have to get out there and try.
