i think its time i told u a story

[Lil-Shy-711]

for the last few days ive been feeling that i should tell my story, but i didnt know how to tell it...

so i guess i'll start here..

the years 2008, i was in my greatest time of my life, i had a gf, i had money, i had a life, but more sinister things where going to happen here, my "best friend" had a thing for everything i had, i thought he was joking when he said "im going to take everything i allways wanted" i was such a fool not to take this into consideration, cuz later he did take everything he wanted starting with me, i grow up with this kid since i was in mid school, i ended up going to jail there for a bit n during this time, he sleeped with my gf in my own bed, then she tells me that she didnt want anything to do with me, she took the xbox she bought me, n gave it to him, later i hear she's pergo with some jerk off that has hep B, then later she ended coming bak for a late night F***, but i couldnt do it, knowing such things, later on that week my "best friend" forgave me for everything i did, can u believe that he forgave me???? i didnt do a damn thing, he was the one in the wrong, later i confronted him about it, well things went for bad to flowing down **** creek, he used everything my friends, my ex, my job, n then my life, i ended up at the bottem of the hole of nothingness, n everytime i tryed to prove that it wasnt how it was or tryed to explain what happen no one lisen, so then i ended up back in jail with 9 BnE, treating, assult, n everything, i know the only way to get out was to make a deal, a deal that would end everything i had worked on, n so i did, but the pplz that where caught in the mid i had to save, n so i made a deal saying that, u can charge us, BUT! i want 2n half year of probation, n kik me out of my home town for 2 n half years, n what this did was, 2 ppl ended up with charges but no jail time, n ther other a 8 months jail sentences, i took the other year on my probation time, then after i disappeared, 5 years later here i am trying to start a new n yet feel so lonely, i dont blame my self for my choices there lucky i made that choice for them but im still the enemy, ive been called a "rat" n such but thous r just names when it came right down to action, no one would stand up, cuz they knew i had military bak round cuz of my father teaching me how to fight n how to kill, but i never EVER used it to kill, he even teached me how to use a gun both single n full auto shots, i thought that if i did this i could start a new life if i saved them from the burden of jail time, i was in jail for 7 months after that deal, then was let go all by my self with no guildes or nothing

 

[whispers]

I can understand how this can be a lonely time for you. But what an opportunity to turn your life around. Not everyone has the chance to start off fresh. Sounds to me like the people who were supposed to be your friends werent true friends after all. However you did choose them, maybe you could use this time alone to figure out why you surrounded yourself with such people. Take this time to see what you want to change in your life, and what would make you happy. Too many people go through life blinded by their past and background, not realy knowing what hey truly want. You have a chance now to figure this out and go for it ! Only after knowing what you want , you can start making actions towards that goal, and you will reach it, if you keep it in focus.

Good luck

 

[Lonesome Crow]

I know Im not currently living the best ways that i can at the moment. Im right there
at the edge of it..cuase I got sucked back into it. It's the same old ****.
Different town, cties, or faces N names...but it's still the same old ****.

Im building my life over again...Everytime i go visit my childhood friends...
It's like I gatta drive through boulevard of broken dreams or some damn ****.
And i got all these young chicks knocking on my back door..they dont give a **** about me.
Its a road that leads to nowhere...I know this already.

Yes...coming home to stair at the four mother fucken walls verse partying
with young chicks that just wanna ****. They have No responsiblities, No ethic, No goals,
no purpose, its crazy like that.....Obviously there's no love and happiness.
Just drama, trauma and trouble.

i know what I have to do ...I aint ganna give you advice cuase I wont take my own.lol

I also know it's posible to step away from all of the ********...cuase I've also done it.

 

[MadMonkè]

dude, you sound like you have a head on your shoulders. when it got down to it, the leader will make the best decision for the whole group.
but nobody says that the hero will be respected...
spiderman? batman? ;p ok those are bad examples...

but hell... like whispers said, starting over is a rare opportunity. I like the way she said it better...

let go of the past (even tho it is a hell of a story... with friends like that, who needs enemies?)
figure out your present
plan the future with a fresh slate
and most importantly, work the plan ;p

 

[Lil-Shy-711]

thanks mad monke what u said it go to me in a good way

 

[MadMonkè]

Ya man. glad it helped. I know how it feels.

a bit of structure at this point will make a world of difference of putting things back into perspective.
and the motivation to work towards what you always wanted.

 

[Drama]

Start anew and hope for the best. Try to stay positive and dont give up. good luck

 

[IgnoredOne]

I also turned on everyone when I was in a criminal organization once, although it was significantly more of a moral decision - it remains one of the proudest moments of my life and the fact that a couple of that that pond scum oxygenstealers have vowed to kill me only reinforces what I did was right. You did the right thing.

You purchased redemption through the blood of the wicked, even as I did. Its the only way to truly know that you are different, the only means, I feel, of true redemption from that crap. I'm proud of you, and you're an amazing for having done so.