I'm dead on the inside, and there's nothing I can do about it.

[IgnoredOne]

What are you passionate about, Eyes?

 

[Yellow Eyes]

What are you passionate about, Eyes?

Art, like graphics design and animation and stuff like that. Somehow none of my friends are interested in those kind of stuff and they usually take art for granted. My mom thinks it's stupid as well.

 

[IgnoredOne]

Art, like graphics design and animation and stuff like that. Somehow none of my friends are interested in those kind of stuff and they usually take art for granted. My mom thinks it's stupid as well.

I know people who genuinely love art, including one of my best online friends. Have you considered joining an community like http://forums.cgsociety.org where you can find people who honestly dedicate themselves to it to a fanatical extent?

 

[Yellow Eyes]

Art, like graphics design and animation and stuff like that. Somehow none of my friends are interested in those kind of stuff and they usually take art for granted. My mom thinks it's stupid as well.

I know people who genuinely love art, including one of my best online friends. Have you considered joining an community like http://forums.cgsociety.org where you can find people who honestly dedicate themselves to it to a fanatical extent?

Wow thanks ignored one <3

 

[IgnoredOne]

Art, like graphics design and animation and stuff like that. Somehow none of my friends are interested in those kind of stuff and they usually take art for granted. My mom thinks it's stupid as well.

I know people who genuinely love art, including one of my best online friends. Have you considered joining an community like http://forums.cgsociety.org where you can find people who honestly dedicate themselves to it to a fanatical extent?

Wow thanks ignored one <3

You're welcome. Passion, in and of itself, is one of the most genuine forms of beauty.

 

[Adrolak]

The best way to keep you from becoming dead inside is to find beauty and passion in something, be it in life, in nature, in art. It's a must, to have something to channel that energy into, to find a meaning and a purpose, to devote yourself to. In doing that, you're physically, and mentally, letting your loneliness spur you into finding something to live for. Something you can close your eyes, think of, and be completely at peace, that you can loose yourself in as a temporary retreat, a place where you are happy and completely focused on something that has great meaning to you. If you're able to do that, I can assure you, you will not be dead on the inside. If you can do that, you should be able to regain what was once lost, and then grow from that experience, looking back on what you've gone through and pulling a meaning from it. That's all part of growing mentally, it enriches your life and gives you a sort of reference point.

 

[AJR]

Lonely I must tell you...I am you. Im 26 and too this point of my life I have personally destroyed my hopes and dreams. I am so lazy to my core that, as you stated so perfectly, unless I have a gun to my head I just dont care. It is apathy that destroys the both of us. You know the only thing, in my whole life, that makes me feel truly at peace is gazing up at the night sky.(If it is clear obviously) I have had tons of jobs, I cant hold one for long or Ill get stir crazy and **** something up. I cant help you feel better, I cant fix your problems, all I can do is tell you I am going through the same thing. Just to be clear, Im not saying that to placate you or make you think I care(no offense but I dont know you so I dont) I just wanted you to know that other humans are crushed under the weight of their own self loathing and apathy.

I will tell you this, I try as hard as I can to make that part of me a "home" part. No one, and I mean no one around me truly knows the depths of my own depression and if they were to find out they would force me to see some ******* shrink.

As a side note to one Lonesome Dove, I find it disturbing that you would speak to someone in such a way. Now I may be brand spanking new here but I would think the proper way to respond to someone would be with tact and helpfullness not the reckless abandon you display. Dont hide behind your sig, it doesnt excuse rudness.

 

[insanelyloneley]

Lonely I must tell you...I am you. Im 26 and too this point of my life I have personally destroyed my hopes and dreams. I am so lazy to my core that, as you stated so perfectly, unless I have a gun to my head I just dont care. It is apathy that destroys the both of us. You know the only thing, in my whole life, that makes me feel truly at peace is gazing up at the night sky.(If it is clear obviously) I have had tons of jobs, I cant hold one for long or Ill get stir crazy and **** something up. I cant help you feel better, I cant fix your problems, all I can do is tell you I am going through the same thing. Just to be clear, Im not saying that to placate you or make you think I care(no offense but I dont know you so I dont) I just wanted you to know that other humans are crushed under the weight of their own self loathing and apathy.

I will tell you this, I try as hard as I can to make that part of me a "home" part. No one, and I mean no one around me truly knows the depths of my own depression and if they were to find out they would force me to see some ******* shrink.

As a side note to one Lonesome Dove, I find it disturbing that you would speak to someone in such a way. Now I may be brand spanking new here but I would think the proper way to respond to someone would be with tact and helpfullness not the reckless abandon you display. Dont hide behind your sig, it doesnt excuse rudness.

You pretty much hit the nail on the head dude (or lady, your profile doesn't say). Interesting that looking at the night sky gives you peace because I generally like looking at nature, which is rare for me because I live in a city.

I haven't been job-to-job like you, but the regular jobs I've held down aren't for me -- they drive me crazy and are one of the things leading to my eventual meltdown.

People will give me the same "see a shrink" or some other deal, but **** all that. They don't understand, and I doubt anyone will.

One of two things will happen to me: either things will get better or worse, and it looks like everything is getting worse.

 

[AJR]

I was talking to my brother earlier tonight. He makes me feel more pathetic than anyone. He is a disabled Vet who has his own demons to battle, but that is neither here nor there, he asked me what I wanted him to do, what could he do...the answer is nothing. I told him same as you just told me, all I can do is go to bed and hope to be better in the morning. I tell myself this but I know my problems with be there promptly when I awaken the next day. Posting on this site will not solve any of my problems, just nice to admit I have them somewhere beside my head or a shrinks couch/drug dispenser.

Each of us may one day transcend our issues to join the ranks of "functional" humans. Or the Earth will be destroyed in 2012, its a bit sad but I find myself hoping for doomsday, then it wouldnt matter that Im a failure, that I was a highly regarded young man with the world at my feet.

 

[insanelyloneley]

I was talking to my brother earlier tonight. He makes me feel more pathetic than anyone. He is a disabled Vet who has his own demons to battle, but that is neither here nor there, he asked me what I wanted him to do, what could he do...the answer is nothing. I told him same as you just told me, all I can do is go to bed and hope to be better in the morning. I tell myself this but I know my problems with be there promptly when I awaken the next day. Posting on this site will not solve any of my problems, just nice to admit I have them somewhere beside my head or a shrinks couch/drug dispenser.

Each of us may one day transcend our issues to join the ranks of "functional" humans. Or the Earth will be destroyed in 2012, its a bit sad but I find myself hoping for doomsday, then it wouldnt matter that Im a failure, that I was a highly regarded young man with the world at my feet.

I know what I want to do, I have ambitions and dreams, but I honestly don't care. No motivation, nothing to to make me give a ****. It's easier to sit around waiting for it to end.

And yes, a lot of that is due to loneliness. When no one else cares about you, it's hard to care about yourself.