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[spyderwombyn]

Hello,
I have an inquiry. I am a very happy person when I am helping others, however when it comes to myself, I tend to beat myself up, dislike myself, have no will to live, and it feels as though I am two different people! I am queer-gendered, and don't identify as either sex....... I am a survivor of childhood sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse, which I have done a lot of work with, and walked through a lot of fires.....
I guess I just don't understand when I am told to "get over it" and to stop being selfish I understand the concept of "it's not about me", and always put others' needs first, yet feel so lonely and don't care for my needs.... Someone please help me out here! I am 46 and cannot go on like this!
Thank You for listening
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[Mary Mary]

Hello,
I have an inquiry. I am a very happy person when I am helping others, however when it comes to myself, I tend to beat myself up, dislike myself, have no will to live, and it feels as though I am two different people! I am queer-gendered, and don't identify as either sex....... I am a survivor of childhood sexual, physical, mental and emotional abuse, which I have done a lot of work with, and walked through a lot of fires.....
I guess I just don't understand when I am told to "get over it" and to stop being selfish I understand the concept of "it's not about me", and always put others' needs first, yet feel so lonely and don't care for my needs.... Someone please help me out here! I am 46 and cannot go on like this!
Thank You for listening
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Who the hell tells you that?

 

[evanescencefan91]

ya I know what you mean some people will say that thinking it's just a quick fix thing

there's no need to beat yourself up

I'm sorry about the childhood abuse that is terrible

that's great that you help others

but as a quote from scrubs goes, you can't take care of others until you learn to take care of yourself

I met a queer gendered person a few times at LGBT z was pretty cool

what other things make you happy? have you tried getting to know other volunteers are there any LGBT groups in your area where you could meet people?