Listen up everyone

[Chip]

Hi there. Its been a while since my last post. Well. Hear me out.

I have been in a relationship for a year and half. Me and my girl got engaged and life has never been better.
But.

Somehow i get this feeling that she doesn't really need me in a way that i need her, and it bothers me every now and then.

She can wanish to the world for like three days without mentioning a word to me. She dont answer her phone when she's having her little runways.

But when we are alone shes the most loving person in a world.
The way she makes me feel is just out standing.
We talk about our future in a funny way, but still both beleving on it someway.

But then again. Shes always late (Like ~3hours or so).
And shes so bad at keeping promises. I mean really the worst case.
Sometimes i feel that it wouldnt hurt her a bit if we would broke up.

So in a nutcase
Im living my dream at the moment. Im reseving everything that i could possibly dream of exept but still things like that bothers me..

..And then they say that women's are compilcated..

(Sorry, lots of typos in this one, i'll get my act together on a next entry)

 

[Minus]

She can wanish to the world for like three days without mentioning a word to me. She dont answer her phone when she's having her little runways.

I would find that rather troubling.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Women arn't as complicated as some them make it themselves out to me.

Life is not as complicated as some people make it out to be.
It's about as complicated as an indiviual wants to make it.

Of course she makes you feel good when you have *** with herand get mooshi with her.
it's not that complicated.

You have the carrot on the stick and the stick routine going

The signs are always there. People don't change unless thier backs are against the wall...
bascailly when the **** hits the fan...Some people don't change at all and head into the grave.

if she can't keep simple promises now...how in hell is she going to keep your marriage vows?

Anyway, I hope I'm wrong.

As long as you're willing to tolerate it, accept it and pay the price....it's okay.
Heck...some is better than none.

You can't change her to begin with anyway.

You don't need her either...don't kid yourself.

 

[Chip]

I haven't ever met anyone so small minded. The scale of "feeling good" is so much more than just having ***. Minor part.

And yes, people change. Some of us arn't just willing to see the change.
Its the same reason why some relationships goes on and on, and others don't.

And how many times have you forgot to change your t-shirt. Little things. They are the ones to be forgotten. But when its the real deal, specially the sleepy ones will react.

You hope you are wrong? Well. Your wish is granted if you ask from me.

Sorry about the heat on this one.
But when people become cynical, everything around them changes.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

As I said as long as you're willing to pay for the consequence for your rewards. It's okay.

Well..I LIVED with my EX-GF for years(over a decade) and we always talk about marriage.
BWT...I love her very, very much.
Of couse she loved me. She tried to bare me children twice. I knew she loves me at some level.
I belive our relationship had plenty more to it then ***.

Whatever she wanted..whatever she did nor did not do. I simply gave her a free pass.
For a couple years she became missing in actions for days or weeks at a time..It bothered
me a bit. I just accepted what was unacceptiable to me. I love her very much.

The empty and broken promises were endless.

I was hoping she would grow out of it someday..
I thought people would change.
I wasn't and is not cynical.

There were many, many things in life I didn't understand.
I already knew , I couln't change her....I learned that lesson many, many years before I met her.

In a nutshell...she's 12 years late and she's still fucken late. It gose on and on....

Surely if I know, i can't change my ex-gf...Somewhere alone the line I know I can't change you either.
I belive I'm more openminded than you think I am. As a matter of fact, I know I'm more opened minded than you think I AM.

In alot of ways i still havn't giving up on her and I still love her. In someways more than I ever imagine.
I know she has to do it for herself first.

Maybe one of these days when it's not too inconvient for her...We'll sit down and have a heart to heart
talk or communication. Maybe we can have brakefest in San Fransico in a romantic resteruant as we both
dreamed and talk about as our honey moon. Maybe not a honey moon anymore...perhaps just to
live a once upon a time dream she and I both had for one another.
Maybe just so i can tell her...I nevered stopped loving her inspite of it all. It's not that complicated.
I can just hear her say " it's better late than never".lmao

At this rate...I'd settle if she just put a Rose and a LOVE note on my grave.