Losing my ability to speak due to loneliness

[Lonesome Crow]

oki doki...u still have the filters on.
How is it working for ya?

Errr..she's also a screamer. I dont care what the nieghbours say.
Walked into the women's restroom with her cuz she wanted me too..the entire bar watched
us walked out together 15 mins later.
Road me like I was a wild stallion in daylight on a heavy travel road.
She gose down on me while i'm drive cuase she wants to.
Have plenty of pics and video cuase she wanted me to take them.
Excitment,passion, wild, crazy, fun..fun..fun quality and quanity.
Right, wrong or indifference...We lived..lived..lived.

The secret is...I don't talk about other women around her and dont talk about her around other
women I go out with...

 

[Stride]

You sound like a virgin to me.

 

[RavenQuill]

hahahahaha

 

[IgnoredOne]

oki doki...u still have the filters on.
How is it working for ya?

Lonely, sad and undersexed

 

[Lonesome Crow]

"The True Gentleman is the man whose conduct proceeds from good will and an acute sense of propriety, and whose self-control is equal to all emergencies; who does not make the poor man conscious of his poverty, the obscure man of his obscurity, or any man of his inferiority or deformity...a man with whom honor is sacred and virtue safe."

See....if you had ever been in fight when your enemy dosnt play by the so
call gentleman's rule or whatever the **** it is you deem to be righteous...
Somewhere alone the line you gatta WISE UP and take control of the
situation and your own destiny. Life is unfair and it dosnt really give a **** how nice you are or what you believe in or dont believe in.
Just like gravity....it's part of this planet/life and your not going to get out
of this life alive. Gravity is neutral. If you dont understand how gravity works,
it'll kill you. You can let it pull you down or use it to soar your wings to new height. Use it to work for you or against you.

Your brain works in the sameway. Whatever ideas or beliefs (filters) you have in you head can be replace at any given time. You not need approval or
permission from anyone. You hold the key and power to this.
If it's working for ya...keep on doing what ya doing..
If it's not...maybe you might consider letting go of unworkable ideas and old
beliefs. Free your mind...Free yourself.
Change your thinking, change your life.

You dont have to be perfect, walk a straight line or on eggshells.
A sail boat on a journey dosnt make a striaght line...it zig zag throughout it's journey.
Enlighten up..losen up...live...get dirty. Give yourself this permission or allow yourself.
Dont miss the ride/life just becuase you're afraid to get wet.

 

[IgnoredOne]

LC, its called sarcasm. I have no issues whatsoever with my life beyond the normal. My perception of the world works well enough for me. I have been in fights and worse. It has been my privilege and honor to have worked closely with some of the deadliest and most efficient men on the planet, and yet many of them were also some of the most professional and politest individuals that you have ever seen.

Just because the world is an unfair, unseemly and sometimes truly evil place, does not mean that as human beings, we need to succumb to it.

And I have no problems with women anymore. I did, once, but I got better

I do agree that one's beliefs are essential to how one views the world, and when necessary, one can or should alter those beliefs. For my part, I generally go with a path of rationality and I hope, with honor and integrity. I am not always a 'nice guy', but I would always wish to be the 'good man'. Evil prevails because good men do nothing, it is said. I seek to prove that wrong.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

evil is a man made concept...
Someone put that ******** in your head as a child or you bought
into it somewhere in your life and ran with it.
You made that your reality or belief.
As I said..whatever the **** you deem rigthous.
You create your own reality..but your suffer from simple logic or have brain damage to recognize simple truth that everyone else too have thier own perceptions of life, filters, or reality.
So you go around like a egotistic maniac with all the evil ********
that's just spinning in your head and thinks everyone else should believe
like you. If not...they're less than or some stupid **** your ego protects
itself to keep you in denial or insanity.lol in other words..irrational.

It is also say...if you seek...seek..seek thats the habit or condition
you put yourself is...as in wanting...want..want want and never having.

Grattitude is a state of HAVE..HAVE..HAVE
I was never separated from god..there for I need not seek..seek..seek
or want..want..want..lack..lack..lack
Surely if I'm never separate from god...there's no evil in me.
To say that I'm evil..is to say god is evil.

here the deal..I'm sort of in between relationship..one foot in one and one foot
in the other...my woman and I are separate and we both dont really know.
There's a lot more to it than this..Lots of personal issues Renae have that I cant fix.
Until she fixes herself. No matter how much I love her...our relationship will be a mess.
that's why its a mess now. So...yeah whatevere the **** evil force that's got a hold
of her mind, body and soul..I pray to god that god will love her and save her with
god's loving grace. I love renae with all my heart and soul..but I cant put my life
on hold forever. The person I'm seeing now is very aware of my situation.
She understand. She's willing to give our relationship a try and love again..
at the sametime..she's not going to wait forever for me to get over Renae and put her life
on hold forever for me. it's a delimma I've carried most of my life.
So...I'll probably go to hell if i believe a certain way if I'm not faithful to Renae?
it would be evil of me?...
ah lets just cut through the ********..my women has addiction problems and it totally
sucks ass....It rips our daughter's heart out just the same.
All her life..all she ever wanted was to have her parents back.
She was so happy that her mom and I got back together and perhaps she
can have finally have her family. For years and years she hated her mother and would
never speak to her. The pains you'll never see underneath her beautiful smile.

No..i dont belive renae is evil inspite of all the crazy **** she dose.
No..I dont belive my daughter is evil either.

 

[IgnoredOne]

Hilarious. For all of your age, it seems that you haven't grown up much. That's sad.

Why don't you meet some of the guys who all but kidnap young girls from their families, force them to sexual acts in front of the camera, beat them to miscarry when they become pregnant and keep them dosed on a regular supply of drugs or sexual stimulants, and then tell me that they're not evil. With familiarity, comes hate.

Of course, they have a point of view. Of course, they have a perspective where they are justified. Of course, many of them could cry all sorts of entitlements to their sins.

And it does not change in the least that they are just human pond scum stealing oxygen who need to just die.

A man has honor, integrity and virtue; you once said that a man was a knight. I agree, but did you even consider what that meant? It meant being part of something more than an animal: the willingness to be a warrior, which first and foremost, is the mindset of acceptance that there are things worth dying for, worth sacrificing for, and worth killing for. It is in service to a greater cause, I find, that we truly find our better selves.

Any animal knows how to **** and how to survive. If that's all you think is worthwhile...Enjoy being a living, breathing dildo. That's not for me.

Oh, and for the extra stuff you edited in: your ex-wife has addiction issues. She needs to deal with that. It doesn't make her evil, just pathetic. Neither God nor hell particularly enters into any of my calculations. Sometimes a clean break and moving on is the best thing, and I fail to see how that is malicious in the least. For every action, there is a consequence and for those who cannot help but hurt themselves and those around them due to their addiction issues, there is also a consequence.

For what it is worth, I was with a girl who also had addiction issues. I quite literally forced her to quit cold turkey, and was not in the least way nice about it. To this day, she is grateful to me. There are necessary things in life, and the responsibility to take action.

This has nothing to do with the topic of this post now. I have nothing to add.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

evidently you lack reading skills and comprehension

It's over your head ..dude

evidently women wanna use deldos instead of having you get inside of them.

Dont really know how old you are..you have the mentally of an old fucken
elephant marching to the grave yard. Poeple believe and will themselves into the grave
being all righteous and crap.

STFU with the warrior ********...I'm exmilitary...yes i fought for your freedom
to speak and believe as you wish...i also have the freedom to say stuf to wanna be warriors.

yes..yes..i read a book about the DREAM GIVER..its' about being a warrior, faith, courage,
let go, fighting evil and all that good ****...

 

[IgnoredOne]

STFU with the warrior ********...I'm exmilitary...yes i fought for your freedom
to speak and believe as you wish...i also have the freedom to say stuf to wanna be warriors.

Its cute how you think that you're the only one who has served. And it is from my brothers who I have learned this ethos, men who I am indubitably honored to have known and assisted.

Maybe you should look up the Army values again. "Service" and "honor" in particular. Oh, and my father was an officer, too. Like his father. Like every single male member of my ancestry, bar a few exceptions.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

you're not your bother...so stop riding on other's coat tail.
Until you have enough balls to go into cambat..just stfu cuz u dont know ****
about what it takes to be a warrior. It aint fairy tail ********.
anyone can talk...walk the talk, dude.

since your so godly and all...you might understand the concept
of sieze fighting. Warriors fight for peace.

 

[IgnoredOne]

Wow. How do I make this more clear to you?

My brothers are those who I served with. I was not a combat asset, but those who I served with on a daily basis were and my specific line of work, I like to think, helped save some lives. What branch were you part of, anyway? You can PM me if you have security concerns.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

No thanks...you might turn me gay or someshit

 

[IgnoredOne]

No thanks...you might turn me gay or someshit

lol