Haha. Thanks man. Always glad to meet a fan 
And yeah I know I repeat myself a lot.
I think about this stuff all the time, in fact it's the main thing I think about, to the point that it's pushed my interests out and I don't know what I like anymore.
Also, a lot of the time when I post, I'm writing to myself as much as I'm writing to anyone else.
The more I think about things, the more I articulate the problem, that's me trying to figure out exactly what it is, why I got stuck in it, exactly how it makes me feel and why, and hopefully trying to "feel" my way out, since I struggle to see it.
It's like I'm trying to "see" my problems and feelings in more detail / higher resolution.
And thanks for the last part, especially.
Who knows, maybe I have developed a "talent" of sorts, and "practiced" creative writing, without deliberately thinking of it as that. Whatever writing skills I have, are just a byproduct of me thinking about my life and trying to figure myself out, articulate "me" and my problems and feelings to myself in order to find answers, which I think about a lot and put a lot of time and conscious effort into. It could have functioned as "practice" without me thinking of it that way.
I do still think I should have done a practical major because I wasn't born to wealth so there's really no choice, and I'm more suited to it because while I don't have the most brains, I've still always had more brains than brawn.
But at the same time I do wish I'd minored in creative writing, for the practice.
I just need to feel something strongly enough, as strongly as I feel like I hate and want to escape my problems, and figure myself out. Then I could write about something else with as much passion as I do with my issues.
