Hi Kim,
if that can comfort you, I am white (not that to me ever made any silly difference) and last year I went to a full time course and there was always someone ignoring me, and they were white too. I just did the same to them and went onto my own business. But at times like these, we have to be careful not to withdraw from other people. So although I ignore who ignores me, I also keep 'the door open' to whoever wants to be my friend (and basically, if someone is an honest person, he can be my friend).
Whatever the colour, we all go through some degree of 'rejection'. I am not trying to diminish your pain and the feeling of insult , but at the same time, remember.....who cares about what other people think? Especially if they are racists, because it's so stupid to be racist.
I lived until I was 20 in a small Italian town and then immigrated to the UK, I have never been a stupid racist and never will be, I have met people from various countries and from various walks of life and never understood how someone can judge a person because of appeareance.
It's just so ridicolous and mentally obtuse. I judge a person according to his actions, not according to his appeareance.
Whatever the colour, I too go through some degree of racism....sometimes I hear things like 'I don't like Italians' and I think 'Uh? Did this guy eat a bad pizza? ' Or maybe he believe we all are like these gangster movies ?
I have studied and read quite a bit of material about self-esteem and assertiveness, but when sometimes I feel down, I remember than the world is not just made of stupid people...and how could I take seriously someone who doesn't know me and judges me just because of my colour, appeareance, origins ,etc?
Come on, I can't take him or her seriously
I just think they are a pathetic joke.
Whatever you do, don't try to avoid people. I made that mistake for years, and deeply regret it now. Remember, there are good people too. They can't be all ignorant and stupid