Really don't know what to do

[someguy23475]

I really don't know what to do anymore. It seems I don't fit in anywhere. Not in real life, nor online. It's so bad that whatever I try, nothing works. There are a few people around online that seem to care, but it's not someone I can talk to all the time whenever I need them because of distance, business, etc.

I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. I really don't.

 

[Badjedidude]

Oh, gee. Another thread.

 

[Doubt The Rabbit]

I'll tell you what you need to do. You just need to get the **** over yourself. Maybe I'll be censored for this, and maybe it isn't going to do wonders for your self-esteem, but you need to be told. Your existence alone means NOTHING compared to the other six billion people on this planet. Other people have lives to lives and things to do, and you honestly think everyone's going to stop and pay attention to you?

Look at yourself - spamming the ******* forum with all these ******** complaints. I'm sick just seeing it all. "Why do you hate me?" "Do you hate me?" "Why are you so cruel to me?"

DUDE. We don't KNOW you. And, quite frankly, unless you MAKE yourself worth knowing, we won't CARE. Right now you aren't doing a very good job for yourself either. Do you know what you look like right now? A whiny, selfish, brat. Now, if you don't think that's what you are, then why act like it? All of us on this forum are TOO BUSY dealing with REAL problems to have the kind of ridiculous, psychotic vendetta against you that you think we have. GET OVER YOURSELF.

You want people to like you? Contribute something worthwhile to our lives, our conversations. Even something tiny but true would work. You haven't done that even once lately, have you? This whining of yours is PATHETIC and it's IMMATURE. I don't know what happened to make you this way, but you need to pull up your pants and put it to rest because we are not your group of supportive cheerleaders. We're not here to make it all better for you, we're here to cope together in this ******** called loneliness that we ALL have to deal with.

Now. You want to move forward and be a productive member of this community? Be my guest. You want to take what I say as an attack and curl up in some cowardly fetal position? Then you're going to find yourself feeling just as ****** as you are right now for a long, long time.

P.S. If, for whatever reason, you read this post and feel like you want to contact me, please don't. I'm not looking for your grief or to be your personal advisor. I'm just telling you to suck it up and take a damn good look at the world around you, because you're not the only one in it.

 

[Badjedidude]

DEETEEEEEE... :O

...I think...

...I think I love you. (goo) (hug)

lol

 

[trZ]

the rabbit speaks the ****** truth

 

[VanillaCreme]

Harsh or not, I have to agree with Rabbit. You're making people dislike you. No one here hates you. It's honestly all in your mind. Even the people that don't know what happened last night, see what you're doing. No one owes you anything, and I think you need to realize that soon. You have to pick which battles are worth fighting.

 

[Callie]

I agree with the last 4 people that posted.

 

[Doubt The Rabbit]

DEETEEEEEE... :O

...I think...

...I think I love you. (goo) (hug)

lol

(hug)(wary)
Nah, I was a little harsh. It IS 2AM.
But I'm happy you guys back me up

 

[Limlim]

Oh yeah?? Well *I* agree with someguy!

Ha! Bet you all didn't expect that did you? Now I am hungry and demand some doritos.

 

[Doubt The Rabbit]

Oh yeah?? Well *I* agree with someguy!

Ha! Bet you all didn't expect that did you? Now I am hungry and demand some doritos.

So...you're agreeing that he doesn't fit in anywhere and doesn't know how long he can take it?

Nope (d) I expected it.

 

[Limlim]

I dunno, I didn't really read his post. I just felt like backing him up! Showing the world that I am not an insensitive uncaring *******.


.... Is it working?

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Take baby steps to chnage your life.

Yes...alot of times I do feel people can really give a **** omeway or the other. So your not alone in feeling that way.

I read alot to try to understand myself better. Self help books..etc..etc.
I attend support groups. So that I dont Isolate myself..
.I still dont feel people understand me....dont bother me that people dont understand me anymore.

I also spent almost a yrs helping an old man. Taking him to hospitals and stuff like that. He died last yrs...but
it was a process of me getting out of myself.. No wild parties, center of attentions.. It was boring for the most part but I was getting out of myself.

You can always join clubs if its avaliable to you.

My life had changed so..so much.
Lots of different experinces.
Lots of bombshells
Broken hearts . Trying to reconcile relationships..etc..etc.
Even all my children contacted me.
Even my exiwf spoke to me for a while. Fell in love with..
Even Renae came back into my life again. That didnt worked out.
It hurts....

---

My life is so fucken weird. Most of the time I cant figure all the **** out nor even know what to fucken do half of the time...but I keep breathing and living...

6 months prior to me signing on this forum my GF died. Her name is Jenni.

Well...heres the thing......my current
GF name is also Jennifer...

Both of these women are Brunettes.
The only 2 brunettes Ive dated..
Weird....really wierd to me.
.
The jouney and mysteries of life.. I dont have all the answers or even know what to do or what is best.
I asume Im making all the correct decisions with the best of intensions..but life is just fuken wierd .
Just putting one foot in front of the other...I keep it simple like this cuz **** gets too damn complicated at times...

 

[IgnoredOne]

Cut the weed and the alcohol like the cancer it is from your life.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

For me at the moment...
Kimmi my duaghter is the most important thing in my life. I feel
or have a gut instink this is what I need to do. This is whats in front
of me.
Its not all about me..It never was.
I love my daughter more than life itself and she needs me to be there
for her more than ever...

no paries..no center of attention..
Just being there for my daughter
and loving her unconditionally.
No one might not understand that
nor care oneway or the other.
Or even judge me or Kimmi..

That dosnt matter....I love Kimmi
with all my heart.

---

Got clean and sober at the age of 23...
Something I had to do for myself...

I do understand about alcohoism
or drugs addictions....

Cant force or make anyone get clean and sober this much I know....
Even if shes the love of my life and the mother of my child.
acceptence is a son of a bitch cuase it hurts llike hell...

 

[IgnoredOne]

Cant force or make anyone get clean and sober this much I know....

That is incorrect, at least for many. In my particular case, it merely required slightly more force than most people believe is acceptable for the individual in question.

 

[SophiaGrace]

Someguy I am going to be honest with you.

You are emotionally draining to be around because you require a lot more emotional energy to interact with than most people.

I think it's because you are anxious about being abandoned and depressed.

You remind me of an ex of mine that didn't want me to have any friends besides him, made fun of me and was a stalker.

You also remind me of this fellow I met on a dating website, he was really depressed and we shared that in common, but every time I did something to better myself he would try to discorage me from it, and I got the feeling it was because he didn't like seeing others around him be successful.

Both of these people were depressed and leaned on me emotionally to an unfair extent. Every human being needs their own emotional space to just "be", otherwise emeshment occurs and, with your state of mind, emeshment would mean the other person would become just as miserable as you.

You might fit in better at a general depression forum, but I also do reccomend that you work on your emotional boundaries a bit.

 

[Badjedidude]

LOL I LOVE THIS THREAD NOW

 

[Lonesome Crow]

Its like this ignorant one...
Theres plenty of article about
abusive people everywhere even
on this board.

You have all the signs and red flag
of being an abusive and manipulative
partner or person....
Youll be in total denial of it..cuz
abusive ass holes lives in denial

Your sacrasim is design to put me down to get at my self esteem...
Thats what abusive manipulative peeole fucken do...critisize. Put down
ect..etc....

A heathy respond is to tell abusers
to **** off...

my life dosnt evole around U....
aother of saying it is I dont really give a **** what you say or thinks about me. Im not your fucken victim.
You dont have power over me

Force a little harder..Ill tell you to kiss my fuken ass a little louder...

 

[Badjedidude]

I am abusive and manipulative.

 

[IgnoredOne]

my life dosnt evole around U....
aother of saying it is I dont really give a **** what you say or thinks about me. Im not your fucken victim.
You dont have power over me

Force a little harder..Ill tell you to kiss my fuken ass a little louder...

Let me know when you have the power of appropriate spelling, Mr. High Level Manage position man.