Ak5
Well-known member
Some-days I am optimistic, some-days I am pessimistic. Unfortunately for me today is one of my pessimistic days. Just had the urge to post here what I posted on The Diary section....
It is very difficult. There isn't a single passing day without thinking about it. You start day-dreaming how perfect your life would be, with friends. Talking to them, having fun with them, mainly having a good time. It's very difficult when your missing out on that. You imagine how perfect your life would be with them; If only you had someone to talk to, someone to spend time with. Your not alone, people surround you, they talk to you, they listen to you, they accept you. Instead of playing your games alone, you have someone to play with. Instead of keeping your phone only as an emergency to contact 911, you have it to interact with your friends when your not hanging out together. Instead of being inside the house for weeks without end, your outside with people who like being with you. Instead of handling all your problems and your issues with yourself, you have someone to rant to and share common experiences. Instead of just being yourself, your in a group. When you go to sleep your dreams are about being with someone else, talking to them, and they actually are listening to you. You dream of walking down the side-walk with them, talking and having fun; instead of being you all alone and the only sound you hear is not the sound of voices and laughs, no, but of the wind blowing. You dream of being able to go to the movies with friends, instead of it being only you. Suddenly you wake up from your small dream and see yourself smiling...once you realize your in your room all alone, the smile disappears and despair follows.
It is very difficult. There isn't a single passing day without thinking about it. You start day-dreaming how perfect your life would be, with friends. Talking to them, having fun with them, mainly having a good time. It's very difficult when your missing out on that. You imagine how perfect your life would be with them; If only you had someone to talk to, someone to spend time with. Your not alone, people surround you, they talk to you, they listen to you, they accept you. Instead of playing your games alone, you have someone to play with. Instead of keeping your phone only as an emergency to contact 911, you have it to interact with your friends when your not hanging out together. Instead of being inside the house for weeks without end, your outside with people who like being with you. Instead of handling all your problems and your issues with yourself, you have someone to rant to and share common experiences. Instead of just being yourself, your in a group. When you go to sleep your dreams are about being with someone else, talking to them, and they actually are listening to you. You dream of walking down the side-walk with them, talking and having fun; instead of being you all alone and the only sound you hear is not the sound of voices and laughs, no, but of the wind blowing. You dream of being able to go to the movies with friends, instead of it being only you. Suddenly you wake up from your small dream and see yourself smiling...once you realize your in your room all alone, the smile disappears and despair follows.
