Taking One Life Off Of Hold

[AFrozenSoul]

So the other day I was running around another forum I frequent. On this forum I found I had a buddy list. Some of the names are familiar others are not. So what does someone who is As weak and desperate as me do? I try to tame my old online life off hold.

Yup I have spent the past two or so months reconnecting with old online friends. I then think to myself what the **** happened? I did nothing to maintain these relationships for 3 years. Now all of the sudden I want back in? God I am pathetic these people should not give two ***** about me. I ignored them for almost 3 years. Now I suddenly walk back into their lives because I am not getting laid anymore? What the **** is wrong with me. I do kit deserve their time of day. I am such a ******* hypocrite.

I get mad at Z for not maintaining our friendship, I am her best friend or so she says, get here I am trying to make up for lost time with all of these online friends. God I am pathetic I need to just give up on her and everyone start over fresh. Then again I am too ******* pathetic to do Even that.

 

[coricopat]

I think it's pretty cool that you're trying to get in touch with old friends. I secretly love it when I hear from an old friend. Lets me know I wasn't completely forgotten--that I had SOME impact on their life.

 

[VanillaCreme]

Really negative attitudes drain the life of people. Really. When you're friends with someone, you're friends, regardless of what happens. I've said this before, but me and Christina sometimes don't talk for weeks. But when we do talk again, it's like no time ever went by. We just talk like we always do. You treat people how you'd want to be treated, and if you treat them like they're really your friends, then it will come from them as well. They obviously cared enough to still talk to you again, so don't be so negative about it.

 

[AFrozenSoul]

I just feel kind of bad. You know suddenly coming back dropping my problems on them.