silvertrees
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I have so far managed to keep food on my table. I have things I enjoy doing outdoor. I have friends to see although it is not as often as before. I feel like I always have this painful longings for something or somebody. I spend most of time alone not out of choice and I thought it is ok, i could entertain myself.
but I can see how much I feel better after I communicate with someone who can be anyone from a person standing before me in line to a friend I haven't seen in a while. When I ave spent too much time alone I seem to get stuck in my own world without realizing it and I tend to get hung up on smallest and pettiest things and lose touch with what really matters. Contacting with the outside world of society and nature helps calibrate myself, although longings and imaginings are alwasys there.
No one can ever really know one's subjective world coloured by his or her experince of perception from childhood through adulthood. But when one is invited to the inner world of the other by sharing moments I hope that we feel we are not alone. sometimes loneliness seems to be penetrating my spirits right through causing so much of something I just want to latch onto anything or anybody.. It is tough.
but I can see how much I feel better after I communicate with someone who can be anyone from a person standing before me in line to a friend I haven't seen in a while. When I ave spent too much time alone I seem to get stuck in my own world without realizing it and I tend to get hung up on smallest and pettiest things and lose touch with what really matters. Contacting with the outside world of society and nature helps calibrate myself, although longings and imaginings are alwasys there.
No one can ever really know one's subjective world coloured by his or her experince of perception from childhood through adulthood. But when one is invited to the inner world of the other by sharing moments I hope that we feel we are not alone. sometimes loneliness seems to be penetrating my spirits right through causing so much of something I just want to latch onto anything or anybody.. It is tough.
