this sucks

[wilter flower]

why is life so hard? My family that abused me and made me the way that I am.. untrusting, angry... don’t want to be around me. I was just a little kid, I didn’t deserve it, I did nothing... how could I? it started when I was 3. So I stick up for myself, cause I know no one else will, I will say what’s on my mind.. I am not abusive to anyone but myself... I have been in therapy for 5 years.. learning to live with what happened.. to move forward... but its my family... I want a mom who loves me, who protects me... so why am I the bad guy because I expect that from my mom. I couldn’t bring myself to go to church today... all the happy families... loving moms.. will I ever just get over this? will I ever meet a great guy that can "handle" me? is it just going to be me and my kittens? is the pain ever going to go away?

 

[A new life]

I'm sorry for your pain.
Really the only thing I can say is that some of the loneliest
times in my life were spent in a pew.

Which reminds me of a billy joel lyric
" I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints"

Good luck to you

 

[Catcher]

Sometimes people are just unfit to be parents. Some will never be the loving, caring parents you wish and deserve to have. They don't know how or they don't want to change. Or some combination of the two.

You can't change people; only yourself. Just know that you deserve love and be treated with respect and not be abused. If they turn away from you because you refuse to be abused, you're better off without them. Keep moving forward with your life and you will find people who will treat you the way you deserve. Respect yourself and others will respect you. Don't give up!