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PyramidHead
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I wanted to inform anyone about my current situation. Since I don't had too much time and only wrote once in a while in this forum. At first, I really want to thank Veruca, as she really helped me a lot. Thanks to her, I really could make it through a hard time, that isn't over yet, but that is already getting a bit less harder every day.
My grandmother had a larger operation in hospital. I had a hard week at work, after I got sick. My sister lost one of her organs and we had a tough time in hospital, when I had to change my donor agreement, so that I could replace it with one of mine. (My agreement before was limited to "Afterlife donation", so they wanted to put her on a list...)
I wasn't quite fit then, and my grand-grandmother died a week and some days ago. Which was a big shock to me, even while it wasn't all that unexpected.
Still, in this last months, I came to realize that I have some friends in some way as well. My family, Veruca, some friends of my little sister, which I often spent time with, my penpal that now even moved close to me and is my girlfriend. I can't really say, how happy I am, for being able to spent time with these friends. Doing things which I often did alone, or which I wasn't doing at all and which I only dreamed of or saw/read in fiction. To even find love in these strange days, I still feel like I'm not deserving this, or that I may wake up one day and that it is just a dream.
I guess I could connect it with my last years and make a book out of it. Life is so strange... but when it wants to keep you busy, it really does a good job. And even while this chapter is very dark, it seems very shiny on the other hand as well. Hopefully, it will lead to a new chapter, or better it may be the first step to a new path. Filled with joy that I don't know yet.
And again, I still think I'm dreaming. To be honest, if someone would have told me, that one day, a penpal from jail would become my girlfriend, I would most likely had laughed. Life sure has some interesting turns.
My grandmother had a larger operation in hospital. I had a hard week at work, after I got sick. My sister lost one of her organs and we had a tough time in hospital, when I had to change my donor agreement, so that I could replace it with one of mine. (My agreement before was limited to "Afterlife donation", so they wanted to put her on a list...)
I wasn't quite fit then, and my grand-grandmother died a week and some days ago. Which was a big shock to me, even while it wasn't all that unexpected.
Still, in this last months, I came to realize that I have some friends in some way as well. My family, Veruca, some friends of my little sister, which I often spent time with, my penpal that now even moved close to me and is my girlfriend. I can't really say, how happy I am, for being able to spent time with these friends. Doing things which I often did alone, or which I wasn't doing at all and which I only dreamed of or saw/read in fiction. To even find love in these strange days, I still feel like I'm not deserving this, or that I may wake up one day and that it is just a dream.
I guess I could connect it with my last years and make a book out of it. Life is so strange... but when it wants to keep you busy, it really does a good job. And even while this chapter is very dark, it seems very shiny on the other hand as well. Hopefully, it will lead to a new chapter, or better it may be the first step to a new path. Filled with joy that I don't know yet.
And again, I still think I'm dreaming. To be honest, if someone would have told me, that one day, a penpal from jail would become my girlfriend, I would most likely had laughed. Life sure has some interesting turns.
