Trying to move ahead

[lbstanley70]

I am a prolific thinker. My thoughts are by no means great, but my wheels are always turning. If you haven't read my story then some of my later posts will not make sense. I am on this site because I know I can't carry around all of my hurt inside without it tearing me up so I come here to vent. Returning to the thinking thing, I have found that all I want to do is sleep now. Once it turns dark outside, my mind starts to punish me and I think about how I screwed things up and what is my ex doing now and how will I ever be happy? It is a terrible way to spend an evening, sitting there and trying to reconnect the dots to the life you are living and make sense of it. I am hopeful that at some point I will quit beating myself up but right now, sleep is the only respite I have from myself.

 

[IgnoredOne]

Loss is a terrible thing. I can sympathize. You need to just start doing /something/, keep your mind from it, and you'll gradually have it more in perspective and under control.