Thank you to all who replied to my questions about **** thread! I appreciated the many stories and experiences i was able to learn about! Honestly i was suprised by the great amount of effort put into your responses and im glad to say i feel as though im supported by a welcoming community. The majority of your responses have told me to listen to me and how i feel. As of now i have decided to take a hiatus from **** to see how i feel in the upcoming days. It might be tough lol thanks for everyones support.