What are you thinking right now?

[Ace Face]

May I ask what who hash is?

OMG!

 

[Unsigned]

Why is it not letting me quote your post?

Anyway, yes, I got that much, but it was never clear what the "beast" was, so I thought maybe you could tell me. Inquiring minds want to now.

I think it was that elephant...

 

[TheRealCallie]

This is beyond ridiculous. It's absolute ********. Could you people please pull your heads out of your backsides?

(No, this isn't about anything on the forum, so don't get your knickers in a twist.)

 

[Lonely virgin]

About how I’m only good in sign holder jobs along with snow shoveling jobs and mascot jobs

 

[TheSkaFish]

About how I’m only good in sign holder jobs along with snow shoveling jobs and mascot jobs

I have similar fears.

Words can't convey how much I hate the notion that that's what I am.
There's no way to accurately describe the magnitude of anger it makes me feel - the force, the fire, the heat.
I hate feeling inherently inferior, so much that it hurts.
There have been times when I've been alone and all the sudden I find myself screaming and swearing and foaming at the mouth, and I look up and see that an hour has passed.

I always burned with a desire to be successful, because my background was lower and worse than a lot of people around here and I hated feeling like that, I hated feeling like a biologically low quality person. It was so humiliating, made me feel like I had nothing to take pride in. Also, I really wanted a better quality of life. I wanted more out of life than screens. I wanted to really live.
But the problem I always had was, I didn't feel mathematically or mechanically inclined, which is what it seemed to me that you needed if you wanted to be successful (and you weren't a pro athlete or A-list entertainer). So I didn't know what to do.

I also thought you needed to have a natural interest in that stuff too, like you naturally thought about, read about, and want to know more about that kind of stuff, and I never did - partially out of feeling like there's no point being interested in things I didn't feel like I could do, and partially out of simply not being interested.

I don't want to discourage you, or poison you with negativity, and I don't know what to say that would be useful.
I just wanted to say, I understand where you're coming from.

 

[TheRealCallie]

Okay, for both of you, any job is better than no job. Even if it's not the greatest job in the world, you are still going to be making money. That goes a long way. You always have the option of finding a better job and there are A LOT of jobs out there, you just have to keep trying until you find something you like and/or can tolerate. It's okay to start small, it's okay to do the "crap" jobs everyone complains about because in the long run employers want you to have job experience.

About how I’m only good in sign holder jobs along with snow shoveling jobs and mascot jobs

What other types of jobs have you tried? Have you considered getting certifications to be qualified for other jobs? Some of them are pretty easy to get. Also, if you can shovel snow, I'm assuming you could also mow lawns and the like, so maybe you could look into getting a job at a landscaping type of business that would do snow in the winter. Just an option.

I have similar fears.

Words can't convey how much I hate the notion that that's what I am.
There's no way to accurately describe the magnitude of anger it makes me feel - the force, the fire, the heat.
I hate feeling inherently inferior, so much that it hurts.
There have been times when I've been alone and all the sudden I find myself screaming and swearing and foaming at the mouth, and I look up and see that an hour has passed.

I always burned with a desire to be successful, because my background was lower and worse than a lot of people around here and I hated feeling like that, I hated feeling like a biologically low quality person. It was so humiliating, made me feel like I had nothing to take pride in. Also, I really wanted a better quality of life. I wanted more out of life than screens. I wanted to really live.
But the problem I always had was, I didn't feel mathematically or mechanically inclined, which is what it seemed to me that you needed if you wanted to be successful (and you weren't a pro athlete or A-list entertainer). So I didn't know what to do.

I don't want to discourage you, or poison you with negativity, and I don't know what to say that would be useful.

ETA: forgot to reply to yours. lol

I sincerely feel that your biggest problem is that you have no confidence. You are so sure that you are going to fail that you are too afraid to try. Just get a job...literally any job. Yes, the job will likely suck, but it's not forever. If you can get an entry job in the type of company you want to work in, you always have the opportunity to work your way up. I think if you got some money, got out on your own, got a car, etc, you would be a million times better than you are right now. You have to DO something, Ska.

 

[Lonely virgin]

Okay, for both of you, any job is better than no job. Even if it's not the greatest job in the world, you are still going to be making money. That goes a long way. You always have the option of finding a better job and there are A LOT of jobs out there, you just have to keep trying until you find something you like and/or can tolerate. It's okay to start small, it's okay to do the "crap" jobs everyone complains about because in the long run employers want you to have job experience.

What other types of jobs have you tried? Have you considered getting certifications to be qualified for other jobs? Some of them are pretty easy to get. Also, if you can shovel snow, I'm assuming you could also mow lawns and the like, so maybe you could look into getting a job at a landscaping type of business that would do snow in the winter. Just an option.



ETA: forgot to reply to yours. lol

I sincerely feel that your biggest problem is that you have no confidence. You are so sure that you are going to fail that you are too afraid to try. Just get a job...literally any job. Yes, the job will likely suck, but it's not forever. If you can get an entry job in the type of company you want to work in, you always have the opportunity to work your way up. I think if you got some money, got out on your own, got a car, etc, you would be a million times better than you are right now. You have to DO something, Ska.

I’ve had warehouse and retail jobs mostly cellphone stores from 18 to 27. Yes I agree any job is better than no job.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

OMG!

I corrected myself after I had misread it at first. I knew what she was talking about after re-reading it.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Is that the Grinch?

The Grinch and I are good friends!

 

[TheSkaFish]

ETA: forgot to reply to yours. lol

I sincerely feel that your biggest problem is that you have no confidence. You are so sure that you are going to fail that you are too afraid to try. Just get a job...literally any job. Yes, the job will likely suck, but it's not forever. If you can get an entry job in the type of company you want to work in, you always have the opportunity to work your way up. I think if you got some money, got out on your own, got a car, etc, you would be a million times better than you are right now. You have to DO something, Ska.

It's OK.

Yes, it's true that I have no confidence. I never really did have confidence at anything, except for memory, reading, and speaking well.

And it's true, I've often felt so sure that I'm going to fail that I'm too afraid to try, or don't see the point to trying/feel like it's not worth it because it probably isn't going to work anyway. This is why I didn't really do sports or art forms when I was younger, and still have problems with learning skills today.

These things are probably at the core of why I've had the problems I've always had in life.
I don't want to try and fail, and be insulted/ridiculed/humiliated, and prove that I'm low status, and feel like I can't help but take it, confirm and accept the insult.
I also don't want to try and fail, and prove that I can't ever do the thing I'm trying to do, because I'm too mediocre/limited, don't have the potential, and am stuck at my level in life forever.
Either way I don't want to prove that my life can't get any better than it is right now, because I'm too limited/inferior to make it better.

I have a lot of thoughts about this that would go beyond the scope of the "What Are You Thinking" thread, and would probably be more appropriate for a thread of my own, or the Diary.

I don't mean to be argumentative, and I know you mean well.
I was just giving you an idea of my reasoning, my headspace.

 

[kaetic]

Do I suck at the job I hate, or do I hate the job because I suck at it?

Either way... Who the hell is buying all these cars?

 

[TheSkaFish]

Do I suck at the job I hate, or do I hate the job because I suck at it?

For me it was always "I sucked at the job I hated", because I knew it wasn't going to make my life better whether I was making the maximum effort or the minimum.
Also I didn't want to be good at it, because, in my mind, I didn't want to become more of The Kind Of Person Who Does That Job.

Who the hell is buying all these cars?

I wonder that too.
In 2024 I saw very few of the new Mustangs.
Usually whenever there's been a new one, you start seeing them in the second half of the year before.
I've definitely noticed a difference this time.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Do I suck at the job I hate, or do I hate the job because I suck at it?

Either way... Who the hell is buying all these cars?

I'm good at my job, but not a fan of it much anymore.

 

[TheSkaFish]

Easy come, easy go.....AGAIN......f*ck.........

Was I really that replaceable? Just like that, I get shoved to the side and forgotten?

Did I count for nothing, this whole time?

 

[TheSkaFish]

I guess it's what I get for spending too much time arguing about sh*t that doesn't matter in the end, instead of making myself prepared.

 

[okidoke]

I guess it's what I get for spending too much time arguing about sh*t that doesn't matter in the end, instead of making myself prepared.

do you feel like you've learned something from it? i'm guessing you have, so that's a positive thing, right?

 

[TheSkaFish]

do you feel like you've learned something from it? i'm guessing you have, so that's a positive thing, right?

Sort of, but it's still a gut-punch just the same.

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Easy come, easy go.....AGAIN......f*ck.........

Was I really that replaceable? Just like that, I get shoved to the side and forgotten?

Did I count for nothing, this whole time?

You should check out the response that I just posted in the unpopular opinion thread to FlynnRyder. Maybe you could read a few things that may help you in your situation as well. I've told you in the past how to change that mindset, but you don't want to. You're stuck in that negative, failing mindset, which isn't going to get you far.

https://www.alonelylife.com/threads/unpopular-opinion-thread.45630/post-1093768

 

[HellsLittleAngel]

Easy come, easy go.....AGAIN......f*ck.........

Was I really that replaceable? Just like that, I get shoved to the side and forgotten?

Did I count for nothing, this whole time?

You have to always believe you counted, no matter what.

 

[TheSkaFish]

You should check out the response that I just posted in the unpopular opinion thread to FlynnRyder. Maybe you could read a few things that may help you in your situation as well. I've told you in the past how to change that mindset, but you don't want to. You're stuck in that negative, failing mindset, which isn't going to get you far.

https://www.alonelylife.com/threads/unpopular-opinion-thread.45630/post-1093768

Thanks, and I don't mean to be mean but, having just got my heart chucked in the dumpster, I'm not really in the headspace for that right now.