what is wrong with me.........

rollin_low2002 · Jul 6, 2011

so I am 25 yars old. Nursing student, I have a great career and life ahead. I have had self-esteem issues since i was 12 years old. I have the Fat child syndrom, which is why I am a Gym buff and in great shape and am good looking. but no matter what, i still feel ungly, no matter what i do. I feel so alone............... I dont have any close freinds and part of that might be becuase i moved a lot. I feel like i dont belong anywhere. I envy those who have long term friendships and wonder if i am evern going to find the right person. to me its easy to find meaningless one night stands but I dont want that anymore becuase i still feel empty and alone. FML... the one person I have fallen in love with, and i think its just attachement issues i am having, is a total selfish jerk and i know its my fault for putting up with it..........................

IgnoredOne · Jul 6, 2011

rollin_low2002 said:
so I am 25 yars old. Nursing student, I have a great career and life ahead. I have had self-esteem issues since i was 12 years old. I have the Fat child syndrom, which is why I am a Gym buff and in great shape and am good looking. but no matter what, i still feel ungly, no matter what i do. I feel so alone............... I dont have any close freinds and part of that might be becuase i moved a lot. I feel like i dont belong anywhere. I envy those who have long term friendships and wonder if i am evern going to find the right person. to me its easy to find meaningless one night stands but I dont want that anymore becuase i still feel empty and alone. FML... the one person I have fallen in love with, and i think its just attachement issues i am having, is a total selfish jerk and i know its my fault for putting up with it..........................

Welcome to the forum. You seem to have accomplished a great deal in life - have you ever had long-term friendships of your own?

AFrozenSoul · Jul 6, 2011

Hmm.. maybe it is your perspective... you feel like you are unworthy and do not belong. Everyone picks up on that kind of stuff. How about feeling worthy and feeling like you belong? I am sure you can figure out how to turn one night stands into dates and relationships. Maybe instead of taking her home, you get her phone number.

Callie · Jul 6, 2011

AFrozenSoul said:
Hmm.. maybe it is your perspective... you feel like you are unworthy and do not belong. Everyone picks up on that kind of stuff. How about feeling worthy and feeling like you belong? I am sure you can figure out how to turn one night stands into dates and relationships. Maybe instead of taking her home, you get her phone number.

This.

Lay off the one night stands as they will get you nowhere fast, girls will think you're just a good time and can GET that, so they may not want anything else from you, whereas if you hold out, they may find you as a challenge and go after you. You have to believe you are worth it and it does show to others when you don't think you are.
As far as the gym stuff goes...are you maybe overcompensating there so you feel like if you look good you'll automatically fit in and people will want to know you? (don't take that the wrong way, I'm genuinely curious)