So this weekend I was at my university's law camp and I had some pretty strange [well, strange for a socially awkward person like me] experiences which I would very much appreciate some help with explaining =/
Basically our law camp was just one big massive drunken orgy and on one of the nights we had a horror-themed costume dance party. I wasn't expecting anything to happen because guys just don't show much interest in me [read: act as if I don't exist]...but while I was dancing, this very good looking guy came over to me, introduced himself and danced with me [and heh, felt me up quite a bit, but I was so overwhelmed to be actually dancing with a guy, and an attractive one at that that I just let him]. He had had a couple of drinks, but you couldn't tell, he seemed completely sober, just a little bit overly friendly ><.
So one thing leads to another and we're in a secluded spot away from the party, it's about 2am in the morning, I'm sitting in his lap [another first for me! O_O] and he tells me... that he wants to kiss me.
I am completely taken aback [but now I realise, considering how the night went, it was the logical conclusion]. I want to too, but then he continues, saying that he shouldn't though because he's realised that I'm a "nice girl" and "too innocent" and he isn't a good person and he would probably hurt my feelings later. Which utterly confuses me. He still tries though, and I manage to squeak out a "no". [I have never kissed anyone before, and I didn't want to give my first away to someone who describes themselves like that =/]. So we sort of sit and talk for a while, and he says several times that he should take me back inside, but everytime we get up, he pulls me down again saying he doesn't want to let me go.
[By the way, I should mention that I am 18 and he is 21 years old].
But after about an hour or so, we realise that we're just going around in circles and he walks me back to my cabin. The next day he pretty much ignores me, but for a few cursory hellos and telling me that I'm a sweet girl and we should hang out at uni sometime.
I don't know much about party protocol so I'm not quite sure.. what happened here >< Was he...just a player looking for a drunken hook up?
Or...did something about my height and weight turn him off me? I find this to be a major root of my social problems =/ I'm very short, I stand at 5 feet even, weigh about 40kg and I have rather chipmunk-like cheeks which make me look about 13 years old. I actually wear quite a bit of eyeliner, but it doesn't seem to help, people still see me as a little child. If this was the problem, does anyone have any suggestions about how I can break out of this child-like image that seems to have attached itself to me and seem more my age?
If you have read through this entire ramble, I am eternally grateful!
Thank you in advance!
Basically our law camp was just one big massive drunken orgy and on one of the nights we had a horror-themed costume dance party. I wasn't expecting anything to happen because guys just don't show much interest in me [read: act as if I don't exist]...but while I was dancing, this very good looking guy came over to me, introduced himself and danced with me [and heh, felt me up quite a bit, but I was so overwhelmed to be actually dancing with a guy, and an attractive one at that that I just let him]. He had had a couple of drinks, but you couldn't tell, he seemed completely sober, just a little bit overly friendly ><.
So one thing leads to another and we're in a secluded spot away from the party, it's about 2am in the morning, I'm sitting in his lap [another first for me! O_O] and he tells me... that he wants to kiss me.
I am completely taken aback [but now I realise, considering how the night went, it was the logical conclusion]. I want to too, but then he continues, saying that he shouldn't though because he's realised that I'm a "nice girl" and "too innocent" and he isn't a good person and he would probably hurt my feelings later. Which utterly confuses me. He still tries though, and I manage to squeak out a "no". [I have never kissed anyone before, and I didn't want to give my first away to someone who describes themselves like that =/]. So we sort of sit and talk for a while, and he says several times that he should take me back inside, but everytime we get up, he pulls me down again saying he doesn't want to let me go.
[By the way, I should mention that I am 18 and he is 21 years old].
But after about an hour or so, we realise that we're just going around in circles and he walks me back to my cabin. The next day he pretty much ignores me, but for a few cursory hellos and telling me that I'm a sweet girl and we should hang out at uni sometime.
I don't know much about party protocol so I'm not quite sure.. what happened here >< Was he...just a player looking for a drunken hook up?
Or...did something about my height and weight turn him off me? I find this to be a major root of my social problems =/ I'm very short, I stand at 5 feet even, weigh about 40kg and I have rather chipmunk-like cheeks which make me look about 13 years old. I actually wear quite a bit of eyeliner, but it doesn't seem to help, people still see me as a little child. If this was the problem, does anyone have any suggestions about how I can break out of this child-like image that seems to have attached itself to me and seem more my age?
If you have read through this entire ramble, I am eternally grateful!
Thank you in advance!
There's not much you can do about it, except for make up or dressing "older". I'm no expert and 5' might be short but I'm a guy and I'm only 5'6" (& 1/2 lol) so I don't find you that short. 
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