I'm here for about a month, I can go anywhere, but I need to know soon. So I'm in the odd position to make this limited time offer of myself, to one very special person who is genuine, and wants a devoted guy to be hers. I value simplicity, and just want to cut through all the bs, So I'm going to post about myself, and if someone might be interested, send me a message, get to know each other more, etc.
Life has been lonely for a long time. I joined this forum in late 2008, was betrayed in Love by 2010, it was hard, but I forgave her. I've had the worst luck, with life, women, money, yep. My father and grandmother died when I was a teenager, leaving me depressed with my step grandfather Paul, who didn't join our conversations, was very distant and the person I related to the least, but he let me stay, and I worked with him around the house and at the print shop. Now he's dead, and those jobs are all automated, and we've sold the house in a probate, so I have money and a new chapter of life to begin.
The deaths, and betrayals in my life have caused me to struggle with depression, and I had stomach issues, extreme IBS, and like a lot of other guys I spent a lot of time online, youtube, or video games, or gaming with my friend, and he betrayed me after I was moping around when Mary left me.
I'm a deep and emotional person, who is loyal and supportive with others. This is my strength and its completely useless with no one in my life to be loyal to. I'm supposed to live just for me, and it's lonely and heart wrenching, at least when Paul was alive it was somewhat bearable. It's as if God would deny all of my good qualities, and collapse my life for lack of opportunity of the kind of situations I needed, meanwhile giving me endless hardships. I guess that's life, mine anyway.
I guess I should've been more worldly, GOD, never brought into my life that one special person. I'm envious of some of the stories I've read, one was about a priest being told by GOD to go somewhere to meet his wife, and a woman had gotten the same vision. Or like those Native Americans who are happy with pre-arranged marriage.
It's a slap in the face when I see something like that. A prayer unanswered, but maybe I'm just not doing things the right way. I'll be normal enough, given time, but right now, I could move anywhere, get an apartment, get a job, I have a 3rd of house to work with, and a small dog to take care of. Right now I'm in Phoenix, AZ, I'm open to going just about anywhere.
Though it is not the wisest thing to do, I've ready to rush into things, for the right person. I'm not joking, if it is me you want, it is me you shall have, and I never betray the people in my life. You can talk to me about anything, and please feel comfortable.
OR Feel free me to offer me your advice.
Mostly I am making this post to see if there could be something magical. All our spirits are connected through the oneness of the Great Spirit, so gonna give that prayer thing one more chance, this month.
Willingness is at least 50%, and Chemistry is the other half. As I am driven by the spirit to type, I will probably update this post throughout the month.
For one month, I could go anywhere... Its hard to decide.
Life has been lonely for a long time. I joined this forum in late 2008, was betrayed in Love by 2010, it was hard, but I forgave her. I've had the worst luck, with life, women, money, yep. My father and grandmother died when I was a teenager, leaving me depressed with my step grandfather Paul, who didn't join our conversations, was very distant and the person I related to the least, but he let me stay, and I worked with him around the house and at the print shop. Now he's dead, and those jobs are all automated, and we've sold the house in a probate, so I have money and a new chapter of life to begin.
The deaths, and betrayals in my life have caused me to struggle with depression, and I had stomach issues, extreme IBS, and like a lot of other guys I spent a lot of time online, youtube, or video games, or gaming with my friend, and he betrayed me after I was moping around when Mary left me.
I'm a deep and emotional person, who is loyal and supportive with others. This is my strength and its completely useless with no one in my life to be loyal to. I'm supposed to live just for me, and it's lonely and heart wrenching, at least when Paul was alive it was somewhat bearable. It's as if God would deny all of my good qualities, and collapse my life for lack of opportunity of the kind of situations I needed, meanwhile giving me endless hardships. I guess that's life, mine anyway.
I guess I should've been more worldly, GOD, never brought into my life that one special person. I'm envious of some of the stories I've read, one was about a priest being told by GOD to go somewhere to meet his wife, and a woman had gotten the same vision. Or like those Native Americans who are happy with pre-arranged marriage.
It's a slap in the face when I see something like that. A prayer unanswered, but maybe I'm just not doing things the right way. I'll be normal enough, given time, but right now, I could move anywhere, get an apartment, get a job, I have a 3rd of house to work with, and a small dog to take care of. Right now I'm in Phoenix, AZ, I'm open to going just about anywhere.
Though it is not the wisest thing to do, I've ready to rush into things, for the right person. I'm not joking, if it is me you want, it is me you shall have, and I never betray the people in my life. You can talk to me about anything, and please feel comfortable.
OR Feel free me to offer me your advice.
Mostly I am making this post to see if there could be something magical. All our spirits are connected through the oneness of the Great Spirit, so gonna give that prayer thing one more chance, this month.
Willingness is at least 50%, and Chemistry is the other half. As I am driven by the spirit to type, I will probably update this post throughout the month.
For one month, I could go anywhere... Its hard to decide.
