whatshappening
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Hey guys, I've been a lurker on here for awhile. I just made an account today. I guess we are on the same boat. I'm not a person that usually tell other people about my situation. I feel more comfortable talking about it on here. Its pretty long guys sorry. I know some of you guys might not read it.
Well my life hasn't always been like this. I use to be a happy child. Everyone use to praise me. What a good and smart kid. I guess I was screw from the beginning. I was born in a third world country. At a few months old, something happen to me. I'm no sure what was wrong, but my mom told me I would stop eating. At the time my family was very poor and didn't have any money for hospital visit. Basically I stop eating and was cachexic. My head was so big compare to the rest of my body... Throughout the school years I was always picked on. It wasn't really bad until high school about the jokes and other stuff. I was bully a little during middle school and high school. That didn't really had an effect on me. The mental abuse from my peers is what made me loose confidence. We were very poor. I had to wear my cousin use clothes and such. Sometime it even had holes in them. It didn't really matter at the time because I was still young. I never really had the chance to get new clothing.
Times have gotten better, but I still look back at what happen. I felt that I spent most of my teenage years were wasted. I had a best friend, but then we move. I met another best friend but then he moved away too. I had a lot of friends at the time, but then they all moved away.
Didn't really have trouble with girls in high school, but now that I'm in my mid 20's I'm having extreme problem. Every one avoids me. I have trust issue now because people that I thought were my friends talk behind my back. So now I dont talk to a lot of people because I'm paranoid thinking they going to talk behind my back. People called me ugly. I know my family say better things but its just to make me feel better. Since I dont have money I don't go out often. I'm a very frugal person because I learn how to spend my money wisely.
The girls that I try to talk to all had some excuse, but I know the reason its mostly my looks. I try everthing from new hair cut, new clothes, good hygiene, but still.
There is this one girl that I'm classmates with that I give a ride back to school since she doesn't have a car. She is nice infront of me, but rarely say hi to me when she with her friends. I think she talks behind my back too just some trust issues. I just feel like I'm just a nobody. Some girl said she not ready for a realtionship anytime soon, but then a few months later she's in a relationship.
The only reason I think I didn't have trouble getting a gf was because it was high school. Most girls are young and didn't know any better. Why would they want me? I don't really bother to make an attempt to talk to anyone anymore.
Well my life hasn't always been like this. I use to be a happy child. Everyone use to praise me. What a good and smart kid. I guess I was screw from the beginning. I was born in a third world country. At a few months old, something happen to me. I'm no sure what was wrong, but my mom told me I would stop eating. At the time my family was very poor and didn't have any money for hospital visit. Basically I stop eating and was cachexic. My head was so big compare to the rest of my body... Throughout the school years I was always picked on. It wasn't really bad until high school about the jokes and other stuff. I was bully a little during middle school and high school. That didn't really had an effect on me. The mental abuse from my peers is what made me loose confidence. We were very poor. I had to wear my cousin use clothes and such. Sometime it even had holes in them. It didn't really matter at the time because I was still young. I never really had the chance to get new clothing.
Times have gotten better, but I still look back at what happen. I felt that I spent most of my teenage years were wasted. I had a best friend, but then we move. I met another best friend but then he moved away too. I had a lot of friends at the time, but then they all moved away.
Didn't really have trouble with girls in high school, but now that I'm in my mid 20's I'm having extreme problem. Every one avoids me. I have trust issue now because people that I thought were my friends talk behind my back. So now I dont talk to a lot of people because I'm paranoid thinking they going to talk behind my back. People called me ugly. I know my family say better things but its just to make me feel better. Since I dont have money I don't go out often. I'm a very frugal person because I learn how to spend my money wisely.
The girls that I try to talk to all had some excuse, but I know the reason its mostly my looks. I try everthing from new hair cut, new clothes, good hygiene, but still.
There is this one girl that I'm classmates with that I give a ride back to school since she doesn't have a car. She is nice infront of me, but rarely say hi to me when she with her friends. I think she talks behind my back too just some trust issues. I just feel like I'm just a nobody. Some girl said she not ready for a realtionship anytime soon, but then a few months later she's in a relationship.
The only reason I think I didn't have trouble getting a gf was because it was high school. Most girls are young and didn't know any better. Why would they want me? I don't really bother to make an attempt to talk to anyone anymore.
