What do you know of me, or my past james?
I suffer with depression & anxiety, my own mother could not love me, I lost my father(my absolute world) when I was 21. I have hardly any family save a sister living at the other end of the UK, I'm in massive amounts of debt, I met the man of my dreams, we cannot be together & I am struggling to come to terms with that loss on top of everything else, as a child I would have been the ultimate target for bullying save one thing.......I have always been aware that I was that one little fighter that made it through, I fought stronger, harder, faster from the start & I do it over & over no matter the odds because that is all I know how to do.
I understand not everyone may feel the way I do & I do respect that, but I have to keep going no matter what, yes I fall down, but you know what? The main reason I love playing roller derby is because when I play it is a physical reminder of what life is all about, I get knocked over but I get back up as fast as I can & get myself back into the game-it's all there is to do.
I hope you can find whatever strength you need to fight on in whatever way you can-don't ever give in.