Danielle
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Long story short, I told this guy friend I was interested in them... he doesn't think of me that way... whatever...
Since then, He's been hanging out "platonicly" with my closest friend, which hurts my heart. I know i shouldn't care... she says she not interested...nor him in her... but i dunno... I have known her 30 years... so i do trust her... she's never lied to me.
I dunno, I just feel crappy about it all.
Tonight I am supposed to go out with said closest friend, but she then told me that the two of them went hiking today, and suddenly I don't want to see her.
This is incredibly selfish of me, but I just can't stop these feelings. I feel angry at her, but I really have no reason to be. I need to get over myself and just move on.
The person I should feel angry at is myself, for having these thoughts... I shouldn't feel jealous of my best friend... i just am.
I'm tired of the rejection from one guy after another, its always something different too, so it's like there is NOTHING at all likable about me. If the guys said the same things, I'd know what I need to work on... but its always different.
I turned 33 last week, I have had 2 long term relationships in my life.. one lasting 3 years... one lasting 12 years... I have decided I am done with men, done with dating, done with looking, done with trying... it always ends up the same for me. I am done thinking that someone is ever going to find me beautiful and love me for me....
Anyway, sorry to be such a Debbie Downer.... I am acting very pathetic I know... but thanks for reading (if you did) I just needed to get it off my chest.
Now I must wipe my pathetic tears, and go visit my friend... *sigh*
Since then, He's been hanging out "platonicly" with my closest friend, which hurts my heart. I know i shouldn't care... she says she not interested...nor him in her... but i dunno... I have known her 30 years... so i do trust her... she's never lied to me.
I dunno, I just feel crappy about it all.
Tonight I am supposed to go out with said closest friend, but she then told me that the two of them went hiking today, and suddenly I don't want to see her.
This is incredibly selfish of me, but I just can't stop these feelings. I feel angry at her, but I really have no reason to be. I need to get over myself and just move on.
The person I should feel angry at is myself, for having these thoughts... I shouldn't feel jealous of my best friend... i just am.
I'm tired of the rejection from one guy after another, its always something different too, so it's like there is NOTHING at all likable about me. If the guys said the same things, I'd know what I need to work on... but its always different.
I turned 33 last week, I have had 2 long term relationships in my life.. one lasting 3 years... one lasting 12 years... I have decided I am done with men, done with dating, done with looking, done with trying... it always ends up the same for me. I am done thinking that someone is ever going to find me beautiful and love me for me....
Anyway, sorry to be such a Debbie Downer.... I am acting very pathetic I know... but thanks for reading (if you did) I just needed to get it off my chest.
Now I must wipe my pathetic tears, and go visit my friend... *sigh*