So, I'm 55 now, I'm not married and I don't have children.
I lost my job in IT, and I am trying to become a teacher of Dutch, my mother tongue and that of 60% of the Belgians.
The studies are going well, every exam I did went fine, as well as the internship.
However, on a social level I am still as lonely as I have ever been.
And now things are getting worse.
Yesterday I received results of a blood analysis.
I was not sober, I had eaten before the test, so maybe some of the indicators could be slightly influenced by that.
However, when I look at the list of medical indicators that are too high or too low, it feels horrible:
* fat (cholesterol) : way too high
* sugar (glucose) : too high
* blood coagulation: way too fast (risk of thrombose)
* vitamin D : too low (strange, because I take a supplement for that, and I regularly eat fish)
* antibodies (immune system): too low
I already had issues with the thyroid gland before (too low after being treated against it being too high), and with high blood pressure.
Both require a medicine to be taken in the morning, but I can live with that and I am used to it.
I still need to see my GP to discuss the results of this investigation, but I guess my life will now be deprived of all the joys of life:
* no love
* no sex
* no fatty food (nothing with cheese for example, even if I create it myself)
* no salty food
* no desserts
* no alcohol
...
So what's left?
OK, love and sex are not strictly forbidden, but what type of woman would be attracted to a man who's not allowed to enjoy a good meal in a restaurant, who might be on a strict diet?
Sure, I could go to a prostitute, but the mere fact that she is only having sex because of the money is a complete turn-off for me.
More investigations are following, btw.
I'll be tested for lactose intolerance, so maybe I'll have to avoid dairy products too.
And this whole investigation started because of a free government test for colon cancer, which still needs to be investigated (but there are many false positives on this test).
It feels to me that at 55 I'm dead already.
All of the joys of life will be forbidden.
Like I'm a modern kind of slave, only there to work or study so that I can keep the economy going, not being allowed any pleasures in life.
I lost my job in IT, and I am trying to become a teacher of Dutch, my mother tongue and that of 60% of the Belgians.
The studies are going well, every exam I did went fine, as well as the internship.
However, on a social level I am still as lonely as I have ever been.
And now things are getting worse.
Yesterday I received results of a blood analysis.
I was not sober, I had eaten before the test, so maybe some of the indicators could be slightly influenced by that.
However, when I look at the list of medical indicators that are too high or too low, it feels horrible:
* fat (cholesterol) : way too high
* sugar (glucose) : too high
* blood coagulation: way too fast (risk of thrombose)
* vitamin D : too low (strange, because I take a supplement for that, and I regularly eat fish)
* antibodies (immune system): too low
I already had issues with the thyroid gland before (too low after being treated against it being too high), and with high blood pressure.
Both require a medicine to be taken in the morning, but I can live with that and I am used to it.
I still need to see my GP to discuss the results of this investigation, but I guess my life will now be deprived of all the joys of life:
* no love
* no sex
* no fatty food (nothing with cheese for example, even if I create it myself)
* no salty food
* no desserts
* no alcohol
...
So what's left?
OK, love and sex are not strictly forbidden, but what type of woman would be attracted to a man who's not allowed to enjoy a good meal in a restaurant, who might be on a strict diet?
Sure, I could go to a prostitute, but the mere fact that she is only having sex because of the money is a complete turn-off for me.
More investigations are following, btw.
I'll be tested for lactose intolerance, so maybe I'll have to avoid dairy products too.
And this whole investigation started because of a free government test for colon cancer, which still needs to be investigated (but there are many false positives on this test).
It feels to me that at 55 I'm dead already.
All of the joys of life will be forbidden.
Like I'm a modern kind of slave, only there to work or study so that I can keep the economy going, not being allowed any pleasures in life.
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