ManOnLifeJourney

I chose the user name Man On Life Journey because I look at life like a quest.

I know a lot of people only post positive things on social media. I know people who seem to only talk in positive terms. I have been through a lot in my life. What they do make me sick! I hinge my postings on honesty. Honestly my life has bruised me in many ways. I have been on a quest to heal and make relationships work. Largely I have been unsuccessful. I'm 45 years old. I was diagnosed with a learning disability in 1987. People have often asked me what it is. I can't tell you exactly. I can tell you my stories. I can tell you from my life experiences that I am not like other people. I really do have a hard time learning things as quickly as the average student. School was no fun. I spent all my time, either studying or getting picked on. The phrase picked on means hit, tripped, things thrown at me, and some other gross things, as well as things being destroyed. My peers did not like me. Currently most people don't seem to like me now. I think I have a personality disorder. With that being said, I do the best I can to be a kind, and caring person. I am thoughtful person. I try to treat others good, and yet none of that seems to matter to them. I don't win any points for it. As soon as I make a small mistake, often times people will abandon me. Even if I don't make a mistake they will lose interest, and abandon me. I believe that many consider me to be a negative person. In my view, I am trying to be an accurate person.

I have some interests. It is kinda hard to list them, because there are many things in life that interest me. However, normal sports, don't grab my attention. I am not athletic, but I'm not fat either. I know how to build computer towers. I have an interest in the Linux operating system. I listen to a lot of music. Christian Rock and Metal has been a big interest in my life. As a single man, Women have been an interest, but I find that I might be getting ready to give up that interest since, I can't seem to make any headway with it. Since 1996, my Dad and I have been building and I have been flying R/C airplanes. I do many different things with my computers.

I wanted to get a job in electronics. I had one for a short 4 weeks. I was fired for not being fast enough. I had another job packing parts at a R/V Place. They told me I wasn't fast enough. A year later, I got a janitor job. I have been at it for 22 years. It is an extremely lonely and thankless job. I feel that people look down at me for doing it. I feel that most people have misconceptions about me and my abilities.

Today I checked all my email addresses, and as usual, no matter how many people I have tried to outreach too, I don't have any emails to respond too. Feeling lonely, as I have so many times, I decided to go to google and search for a new forum for me to try. This one popped up, and I like the name of it. I decided to join and see what happens here.

Welcome to the forum

Welcome to the forum. I can appreciate some of the difficulty of your story and empathise.

One thing I will say though, I was a cop for over 20 years and very regularly saw and appreciated the efforts of the janitors that returned our workplace areas to a hygienic level, and I was one of few that thanked them for their effort. So I guess I’m saying, don’t think any less of yourself for being “just” a janitor.

Welcome to the forums.

Along the lines of what Oki said, one of my jobs would be totally unbearable if it wasn't for the constant work of the janitors. Seeing what they deal with, you have to appreciate them.

Thank you all for the welcome. Not all Janitor or Custodian jobs are the same. Mine is loaded in work because the school keeps cutting back, and they keep telling us that they can't get people to hire for it. For the past 5 weeks I basically been 'cleaning' the whole school building. It's not a good job because they are asking me to do the impossible.

ManOnLifeJourney said:

Thank you all for the welcome. Not all Janitor or Custodian jobs are the same. Mine is loaded in work because the school keeps cutting back, and they keep telling us that they can't get people to hire for it. For the past 5 weeks I basically been 'cleaning' the whole school building. It's not a good job because they are asking me to do the impossible.

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Are they changing the job description you signed up for? I hate when organisations do that, and wanting more done for less money.

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Are they changing the job description you signed up for? I hate when organisations do that, and wanting more done for less money.

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Kinda. They have been messing with stuff for years. They keep reducing us. I think originally they were trying to save money. But after they did this for so long, now they come to realize that they can't get anyone to replace those that are retiring or leaving. They just seem to be moving the custodians from one school to another. As for me, if I was a "normal" person. Someone that didn't struggle with a learning disability and getting new jobs easily, I would of left them years ago! If they start requiring me to do things that I can't work in with everything else, and then complain about things not getting done right. I will need to walk out on them. It is frustrating because unless you do my job, you can't fully understand it. I have tried so many times to explain it to someone that never has done it, and they just look at me, like they can't understand why any of it is big deal. "Why can't you just change things a little." I've been changing things for years! How creative can I be?