32 and can't see ahead.

[Ptaycool]

Hi my names Peter,

I've gotten no where at 32 and I'm starting to think my life will be nothing. I live on my own in a council flat and am on benefits. I recently got out of hospital after 9 months because i tried to commit suicide after spending years thinking and believing I commited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit (the unforgivable sin). I got diagnosed with schizophrenia and diabetes in hospital. I used to have girl friends growing up but haven't for years. I see all my school friends have kids and I feel like the only one without any like only without. I'm overweight

 

[nibbysaurus]

Hello and welcome!

 

[Ptaycool]

Hi how are you?

 

[Naleena]

Hi my names Peter,

I've gotten no where at 32 and I'm starting to think my life will be nothing. I live on my own in a council flat and am on benefits. I recently got out of hospital after 9 months because i tried to commit suicide after spending years thinking and believing I commited blasphemy against the Holy Spirit (the unforgivable sin). I got diagnosed with schizophrenia and diabetes in hospital. I used to have girl friends growing up but haven't for years. I see all my school friends have kids and I feel like the only one without any like only without. I'm overweight

Hi Peter, 
Welcome to the forum. Feel free to look around. There are a lot of nice people here. Hope you have a good day.

 

[MissBehave]

I can relate to the "can't see ahead" title. 
It's like looking into nothingness. 
The here and now is where I live.

 

[ahsatan]

Welcome
Peter

I can relate. I have health probs and in my thirties as well. My life is nothing and will always be nothing.

 

[GustavusMacer]

Hello Peter.

I'm sad not to have a family of my own too, while people I know have their wife and kids already... Some of the kids growing up. Most of my cousins have families. I wish I had a family but I don't... I try to live with it...

I don't believe there's anything we can't be forgiven for while we're alive. All right, one will have to answer for terrible sins and the like, but the beginning, I guess, is to admit, and living with it. A person who has killed another can't bring the one he's killed back to life, for instance. He has to live with it, and make what he can to live a different life from the moment he decides to do so. Anyway, I digress...

Welcome to the forum.