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Lonely in BC
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Stars said:To you, dear gentleman,
I had a mad crush on you. A few months ago you messaged me out of the blue; and I thought to check up on these forums recently. For some reason, you came into my mind a few days ago and haven't left since then. I wasted several hours of my life with my awesome internet-detective skills and have learned that you are happy now and have a partner.
It's a strange feeling that I have right now though...kinda like the feeling of loss of what could've been something very happy for me if I had you. Well, if we had the opportunity to meet and you were interested in me as well. But alas, our paths never crossed and it was just never was meant to be.
What I'm really glad about though is that you're happy now. You deserve every bit of it. I truly mean it.
(Also, I say "*had* a mad crush" because saying "I have a mad crush" on some online stranger that's happily living his life - probably seems creepy. Not to worry though; I'll be okay.)
Even though I'm in a much better place right now...I kinda wish to go back during those dark times where we both were hurting and comforted each other during our late night chats. If I could, I would change some of the things that I've said (cause I was very off-putting and whiny at times); and seriously took up your suggestion of meeting you.
-cough- My habit of my never-ending long-winded miserable, depressing rants and continuous whining with sprinkles of TMI, made me too embarrassed to meet you - or anyone from here. That's probably the biggest reason why I didn't try to meet you...fear of "preconceived notions"...if those are the right words?
Also, I'm assuming you meant it and wasn't saying it out of politeness, as many before you have.
Even if nothing actually came from it, you are just so ******* awesome that it'd warm my heart to be associated with such a great person.
Nonetheless, I'm glad that you finally found yourself a beautiful girl that sees you for how wonderful you are.
SEE? I WAS RIGHT. I TOLD YOU TO STOP DOOMING YOURSELF AND YOU WERE SEXY AND YOU'D FIND LOVE. FFS. SHEESH.
We should've bet money on it.
This is something I can relate too as its happened to me as well. Isn't it interesting how it's the ones who somehow slip away are the ones that we wish we'd tried harder for. Sigh, sometimes the opportunity to be able to turn back time would be so welcome.....