In the end I probably talked to anybody but you. Why am I like this? But it's probably for the best. I'm in no condition to let you have an enjoyable talk. But yeah I'm getting more and more paranoid and surely read too much in everything you say.though I really hate coincidences. Why you? No idea.. but for now it's like this. And I do feel like punching myself. The problem may very well be that you, like others, don't understand. But I surely don't help. Hope everything will make more sense tomorrow