Actually I am Not Worth It
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AFrozenSoul
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@blackdot: Well then I am pretty sure you and I are not on the same path. Because my suicide is the result of me just being an inferior human. I also have no intention of pushing anyone off the path. As far as I see, every human should want to kill themselves because life is a pointless exercise. Might as well get it over with sooner rather than later.
I do understand about people suddenly shutting up when you ask them for a why. I find it funny really. Next time it happens I am going to ask them to not lie to me. Or if they insist on lying to me then they need to keep the lie going. Because if they do not have an answer they are lying
@Sci-Fi: I do not take hand outs. Even if someone wanted to set me up with someone. I would refuse because it is not a genuine attraction. It is only guilt, they would feel bad rejecting this other person that their friend really likes. Plus I would add on the whole ruining existing relationships to it as well.
I am not asking anyone to hook me up. I am asking people to justify why if I am as super amazing as they claim. Then why do I not have any mates? It is a simple question to answer. I am not asking for them to throw me a bone. I am just asking for a simple explanation. Is that so hard to give? Granted I already know the answer. I just want to force someone, especially women to say it. Because women hate admitting that it is because I do not approach women is the reason why I am single. Because then all of the sudden it ruins all their fantasies about how just being happy is enough to get a mate.
@Limlim: Yes I did once ask my sister. She was ok with it for about a week. Then suddenly she became too busy. I think it was 6 months later she sent me an apology email and let me know she had not forgotten about me. It was just that her life was too busy. That was the end of that. That was a little over 2 years ago. Whenever I try to include her she is all talk. Otherwise I have no friends so I have no one to ask. Everyone I talk to is online. All of them see a more authentic side of me. Which is different than what most people see.
I already know my dads answer to getting better with women. His answer is to get them drunk. I do not ask my mom because she likes to live in a 1920s world of innocence where babies are brought to you by the stork. So why even bother with her. My youngest sister is a narcissist. So she could really care less. I made another thread about something she said to me. About how her major problem in life was she was having too much sex.
I did join a forum for improving myself. Guess what all the stuff worked for everyone but me. So I gave up on all of that. The last step is paying someone, you know a therapist, to tell me how to fix myself. I refuse to do that. I pay for stuff that I can see results in. Not something that results vary greatly based on how intelligent the person is.
I do understand about people suddenly shutting up when you ask them for a why. I find it funny really. Next time it happens I am going to ask them to not lie to me. Or if they insist on lying to me then they need to keep the lie going. Because if they do not have an answer they are lying
@Sci-Fi: I do not take hand outs. Even if someone wanted to set me up with someone. I would refuse because it is not a genuine attraction. It is only guilt, they would feel bad rejecting this other person that their friend really likes. Plus I would add on the whole ruining existing relationships to it as well.
I am not asking anyone to hook me up. I am asking people to justify why if I am as super amazing as they claim. Then why do I not have any mates? It is a simple question to answer. I am not asking for them to throw me a bone. I am just asking for a simple explanation. Is that so hard to give? Granted I already know the answer. I just want to force someone, especially women to say it. Because women hate admitting that it is because I do not approach women is the reason why I am single. Because then all of the sudden it ruins all their fantasies about how just being happy is enough to get a mate.
@Limlim: Yes I did once ask my sister. She was ok with it for about a week. Then suddenly she became too busy. I think it was 6 months later she sent me an apology email and let me know she had not forgotten about me. It was just that her life was too busy. That was the end of that. That was a little over 2 years ago. Whenever I try to include her she is all talk. Otherwise I have no friends so I have no one to ask. Everyone I talk to is online. All of them see a more authentic side of me. Which is different than what most people see.
I already know my dads answer to getting better with women. His answer is to get them drunk. I do not ask my mom because she likes to live in a 1920s world of innocence where babies are brought to you by the stork. So why even bother with her. My youngest sister is a narcissist. So she could really care less. I made another thread about something she said to me. About how her major problem in life was she was having too much sex.
I did join a forum for improving myself. Guess what all the stuff worked for everyone but me. So I gave up on all of that. The last step is paying someone, you know a therapist, to tell me how to fix myself. I refuse to do that. I pay for stuff that I can see results in. Not something that results vary greatly based on how intelligent the person is.
VanillaCreme
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AFrozenSoul said:
Ah, that was to Blackdot though. However, no one can prove you wrong with your life. All they can tell you is what's wrong for them.
AFrozenSoul
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@Limlim: No I am missing out on sexual activity. Well that or death whatever that may be.
@VanillaCreme: True people can only tell me what is wrong for them. However, they can try and justify it. Is it really that hard to understand WHY something is wrong for you? Most people are not willing to give me that.
@VanillaCreme: True people can only tell me what is wrong for them. However, they can try and justify it. Is it really that hard to understand WHY something is wrong for you? Most people are not willing to give me that.
Sailor Moon
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If only we can be strong enough to look at our lives and see what we need and accept. To change...but saying it is easier then doing it. . .. o.o. ...sorry had a bad thought scratch that part ouy......>°< gahhh
AFrozenSoul
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@Limlim: Yes, I would be better if I could easily obtain sex. However, since obtaining sex is pretty much impossible for me. There is no reason to even pretend like that is a reasonable solution for me.
@Sailor Moon:
aren't I doing that. I mean I am accepting that I am worthless and not worth the time or energy needed to keep me from dying.
@Sailor Moon:
aren't I doing that. I mean I am accepting that I am worthless and not worth the time or energy needed to keep me from dying.
In a lonely place
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Why can't you obtain sex. Are there no discreet prostitutes in your area? Or are you totally against that idea? I accept money may be a problem here.
AFrozenSoul
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@In a lonely place: Even if I knew how to propsition a prostitute. Attractive ones cost a lot of money. Plus I am sure they would add on extra to make sure that I do not want to pay.
Plus it goes back to the whole negative investment thing. You know because it would not last anywhere NEAR what the cost would be.
Plus it goes back to the whole negative investment thing. You know because it would not last anywhere NEAR what the cost would be.
In a lonely place
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But have you tried it? Maybe it is something just to keep you going for a while, something to look forward to. If you are a virgin, like I was when I went for the first time - it was an achievement, a milestone and yes it costs a bomb for what is a short interaction with another human being, but it can be a good experience, believe me.
AFrozenSoul
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@In a lonely place: Well if I was a virgin the experience would be more worth the cost. I would actually be able to make it last worth something. Not like you can buy a hooker for an hour and keep her there. Not like I could last more than a minute.
Anyway, I would rather spend my money on video games. My soon to be roommate told me it cost him $160. Yeah I could buy 2 or 3 games for that and be entertained for 90 to 220 hours. As opposed to 60 seconds. Plus I have a vivid imagination so I can pretend handling the urges myself is the real thing.
I mean why waste time and money when I have debt? Plus I am going to kill myself so why not work on knowing my body will be decomposed long before anyone even notices I am gone?
Anyway, I would rather spend my money on video games. My soon to be roommate told me it cost him $160. Yeah I could buy 2 or 3 games for that and be entertained for 90 to 220 hours. As opposed to 60 seconds. Plus I have a vivid imagination so I can pretend handling the urges myself is the real thing.
I mean why waste time and money when I have debt? Plus I am going to kill myself so why not work on knowing my body will be decomposed long before anyone even notices I am gone?
