I thought this would have been easy but I really don't know where to start!
Ok Here goes..
I'm feeling so lonely because no one actually speaks to me.
I'm 25 and I've never really had good friends I used to go to a private school and because my parents were so pre-occupied with their own problems they never really paid much attention except when my grades would come in. Even then it was a well done. I was never socially awkward I can communicate perfectly well with anyone and do well in social gatherings, it was just that I never had the same interests as the other people in my class. It was ok during school hours but when I would go home I used to cry because I knew that the other people would meet up.
After graduation I tried to keep in touch but most people went abroad to study and I went to university in my country and I was not missed. I tried to make friends at the university but it was either I was back-stabbed so many times or that I never fitted in the existing 'clinques'. I was an erasmus student and during that year I met my best friend she is the nicest person I could ever ask for. The year ended and its been 3 years since I have seen her and miss her so much it hurts just thinking of her. I live on an island and suffer from aviophobia so I can't visit her.
During these 3 years leading up to the present, I have become friends with some of my sister's friends and it was ok because even though we didn't really have much in common we went out partied and did stuff together. This will get really long so I will try to shorten this. My sister ended up backstabbing me so that she would get what she want (long story here) and has turned all of her friends against me. She was even trying to make it out as if I'm crazy and don't know what I'm talking about. She has also been manipulating my mother so she could do whatever she wants in our house. I've been more than supportive to my mother to the point where I almost became her personal therapist. I was so stressed out that I fainted twice and had heart problems.
I decided I had enough and these few days I've become so depressed I've locked my self in my room I deleted my facebook because I really do want to see where everyone has gone on holidays or how nice a time they've had, and my mother only knocks on the door to see if I'm still alive or not once she hears me answer she goes away and carries on with her day.Forgot to say that my phone has not rung once this past month no-one has wondered how I was.
I only want someone to call me and ask me whether I'm ok or need anything.
Please someone speak to me I haven't spoken to anyone for a week and I'm going crazy!