Do you feel trapped in life & you're in circumstences you never thought can happen?

[Drama]

Sometimes when I think about my life, I wonder 'How did I get here? How did I become who I am?' I dont remember when things went wrong exactly. All I remember is trying to comfort my mother about the future, MY future. Telling her I'll be ok.. Seeing myself as a healthy confident young woman. (I was a healthy confident kid). The next thing I remember is being a prisoner. I usually see myself in a room with bars all around and it has no key, and I try to remember where/how did I get here?
What about you? Do you feel like life trapped you? Do you feel like you don't know how you get where you are at now?

 

[Callie]

I think about that all the time. I do feel trapped by life and the circumstances that have been given to me. They aren't really MY issues, so much as my son's trapping me here (I do not in any way resent him, so don't even go there).
When he was 3 he started having problems with allergies, so we took him to an allergist. We were told that he has the worst allergies he's ever seen in this area. He couldn't go outside for more than 5 or 10 minutes without getting asthma or hives. So we were forced to find activities to do inside. We played catch inside (I think we even played baseball once...lol) we did it all inside.
Then when he was 4 he started acting out and everyone told me it was just his age, he'd grow out of it. Well when he was 7, his school approached us about it. We had to have him evaluated 5 times before he was diagnosed accurately.

Fast forward a few years and my husband leaves me. I have never liked living where I do, where I have always lived. I can't leave now because of my children (especially my oldest) I can't take them away from their father and away from everything they know.

I feel like I've always been trapped here....I feel like I don't belong here...

 

[Sci-Fi]

I've never had those feelings. When I was younger I couldn't see myself getting older, I honestly thought I was going to die before I finished high school. I know exactly how I got where I am now and why I am the way I am. I often feel that I'll never go anywhere, never be more than what I am and have now. I guess I'm trapped within who I am and have accepted that nothing will change in my life. Screwy but its the way I sometimes think.

 

[Barbaloot]

I suppose in a sense... I'm certainly at least not in circumstances I ever imagined I would be in.
When I was 21 and had just finished my bachelor's degree, I thought I had my life-and-career track pretty determined. I stayed as close to the original plan as possible, only to find that track pretty much completely de-railed two years later due to a variety of reasons. I made a decision to choose love and companionship over finding material success, only to find myself two years later in a situation where I am feeling pretty unfulfilled. I suppose I should have anticipated it. My education is useless to me here, I live somewhere that offers me absolutely no opportunities and I have an entire language to learn before I can even think about getting a menial job. I am in extensive debt from my education and I live too far away from an institution of higher education to even be re-trained. I hope we move, but that presents a whole host of new perils. I want to have a life, but that's so far away. And even then, what will I be doing in the ass-crack of the Arctic? :\

 

[Drama]

((((callie)))))

((((barb))))))

Thanks for sharing (L)

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Sci-fi you're lucky you know how you became who you are. Something less to worry about

 

[Lost Drifter]

Sort of. In my twenties the world was my oyster, I had good jobs, a nice home, great experiences and was living what felt an amazingly lucky streak. I remember thinking I had made the big league, I had climbed out of the gutter I was brought up in and was living the dream with nothing to bring me down, surly it would only get better right? I was so confident it would, I felt I could accomplish anything back then.

Alas men have a genetic tendency to mess things up and I’m no different. Now when I look in the mirror I see a tired, lost 30-something stuck in a dead-end job and living in an empty run down house. I’m back in the gutter I started in like somehow I came full circle only this time I don’t have the confidence and mojo that I used to have. I’m getting older, I’m struggling to obtain some decent qualifications so I can make some sort of future but I’m afraid that it will be too little too late. Not a day goes by without me feeling trapped and wondering what went wrong. It feels like I was never destined to leave the gutter in the first place, that the better life I once had was just some cruel bait to drag me along, my current life feels like fate is pointing and laughing "I told you so" at me and I was a fool to think I would accomplish anything better.

Part of me wants to stop dreaming of a better life and to start accepting this as being who I am but without hope of a better future I doubt I could make it until next week. It's the only thing keeping me going at this point.

 

[Ak5]

Yeah I do. Some days I feel like I'll be completely trapped in my loneliness forever, thinking I'll never be able to have a normal adolescent/young adult life. I want friends, I want to hang out with people; but I can't because I have no-one. Granted, I'm 16 still, I just hope I'm able to escape from this prison soon.

 

[Felix]

Years of therapy granted me the knowledge of knowing almost completly how I got here... But it's still hard for me to socialize.

 

[fox]

I am not sure I am trapped.. some times I feel this is so, but it is an illusion. Any time I wish, I can get up and leave, to find who knows what.. probably it would not to find some better situation, but a different one certainly. I did this sort of thing before. But, by one person I tie to my situation now. The situation is not so much a happy one on whole, but I choose to remain by the person, so with this sort of choice I guess I am not trapped.

 

[whispers]

I freed myself partialy when i left my ex...but when i did i wanted to move out of town also. I hate it here, been born and raised here, but i hate the polution, i want something different, i realy want to leave. To make a story short... i cant leave because of my children, they said they would stay with their dad, they like it here. So either i leave and lose those precious years with my daughters. or i stay and feel sick, sad and trapped. Now its even worse since i fell in love with someone from out of town...far from here.... where i want to be.

 

[Peter Lorre]

I do feel trapped here sometimes, as I'm in a place I don't really want to be, but have to be, doing something I don't want to do, but at the same time need to do since it'll help me later on.

It's hard to stay motivated sometimes, even when it comes to my 'hobby'. When I look at what some of my former teammates have achieved, and I compare that to where I'm at... it does sometimes get me down. Especially when I look back on some of the things that happened to me and certain decisions I made.

I try to remain positive and hopeful though, something at which I'm mostly successful as I'm very optimistic by nature

 

[Sci-Fi]

Sci-fi you're lucky you know how you became who you are. Something less to worry about

Sometimes I wish I didn't...cause I've never been able to fix it.

 

[Jilted John]

Everybody is "trapped" in their life,the only difference is whether the cage is gilded or not. Mine certainly isn't these days,but I heard an expression once,"Change the things you can,accept the things you can't."

We are all the victims of circumstance.

 

[Callie]

Everybody is "trapped" in their life,the only difference is whether the cage is gilded or not. Mine certainly isn't these days,but I heard an expression once,"Change the things you can,accept the things you can't."

We are all the victims of circumstance.

Very true

 

[Lonely in BC]

For those who are trapped in their current situations due to your children I admire and respect your choices for putting your kids first. I urge you not to lose sight of the dream of being elsewhere though, hope is what makes us aspire for more.

The times I've felt trapped in life were horrible- I'm grateful that I've been able to create change.

 

[Kat]

When my emotionally abusive father passes due to cancer, maybe I will feel less trapped.

 

[Sci-Fi]

I think this thread needs a big warm group hug

Cutest thing I could find.