0mgofhappiness
Well-known member
Going from being an ugly duckling trying to make myself a swan, losing it again..now being the ugly duckling again. I miss the outcome that a tried and succeeded in. I was an ugly duckling became a swan then lost it again. No going back, it was the challenge and wining. Now all I see is past, past, past. I miss succeeding, making someone smile genuinely making them pleased, thankfully. I have received knock back after knock back always picking myself up again. I miss that being able to pick myself up feeling, it's beyond my control now, it is impossible to be 16 again. Become excited to be twenty again, be attractive to the opposite sex, that looks a man gives you when you are the only cake he wants to eat. Yes I miss that! A man that wants no other but you. Impossible with the variety online, always there to tempt, it would take a man of steel not to succumb to the treats available to him online. Online dating and secret sites have made some excel other derail.
