Josh
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Oh wow I am really feeling ****** tonight don't know what it is but I am about as depressed as I have ever been right now. It's so bad right now I can't really even get motivated to do my homework which is really the only thing that drives me to live anymore is my schooling. If I give up on it I pretty much will have nothing.
The last time I felt this bad was after my first and only girlfriend dumped me and then I joined the military. I am worried I am going to do something drastic like that again.
I have been really thinking about maybe seeing a counsler but I don't really want to because for the first thing it would be really weird and embarrasing also it's probaly pretty costly and with school I don't have that much extra money.
I really don't know why I made this post other then to feel like I somewhat vented my troubles. I am finding I think a lot of my problems are 100% my fault tonight I was invited to two parties and I just couldn't muster up whatever I needed to go to them.
The last time I felt this bad was after my first and only girlfriend dumped me and then I joined the military. I am worried I am going to do something drastic like that again.
I have been really thinking about maybe seeing a counsler but I don't really want to because for the first thing it would be really weird and embarrasing also it's probaly pretty costly and with school I don't have that much extra money.
I really don't know why I made this post other then to feel like I somewhat vented my troubles. I am finding I think a lot of my problems are 100% my fault tonight I was invited to two parties and I just couldn't muster up whatever I needed to go to them.